hMmMm..well though examinations are coming..i'm here still blogging..hAhaha..well!!..hahahaha..well...i'm nw on the phone wif my darling..ya..then she just came back from the sinseh..she sO poOr thing..sHe sprain her sHoulder n then she now cannot move her hand...so poOr thing..haiz..poOR daRling...*sayang oRh saYAng..dun pain liao..dun cry liao okaY?*...dun cry dun pain...you dun move so much liao okay?soRry i forgotten to bRing back ur daily file for you!!..soRry...*boW n knEels for forgiveness*..soRry..soRry..soRry i so useless..can''t even take care of you properly..haiz..well today..ma lu...today when i was walking on the walk way to tap my card..after taping..i went to the assembly ground n when i was walking i didn't watch my step..i tRip..haiz...*covers my face*...sO MA lU!!! weLL...ya..now i think tt i sprain alittle cos i is like paining..yaH...*sMIlex*...paIN..hAHAha...hMM....eH...today Gt cHInese oRal exaMs..n i this moRning then Noe..hAiz...at examS i was sTutterINg everywhere...n i couldn't read properly even...*screaMS*..n tt blOody Ding hOR..sHE waH lao here scream there scream..make us go on stage n sit while every1 was on the fLooR!!..wah liaO..sHE come n anYhw fa Bi qI!!she very great ar...asS lA!!...faRked up by her!!!!!!!..aRGHHH!HHH..weLL tt's basicaLLy my daY....

[babY..i miSH you...n you take care okay???]

heehee..okay finally for today's blog..well hMM..today was tiring loRh..ya..had alot oF woRK to do...i must emphasize again...aLot aLot of woRk to do sia!!..yeah...i gt my arty to finish...haiz tt onion ar..(mrs ong)she wans us to like finish 3/4 prepartory woRk neh!!wat the hell you noe!!!!aRgh..PIss Off..well i must say i'm 1/2 way done to wat i';m suppose to hand in le..well to GOd be the Glory..yeah..n my frend's dog visited my house today..name peper..hAHAha>>Cute dog..well i gt to go back to my arty!!LuRv you!!n mISh MIsh Me!!!

Baby...StuDy woR!!we yi qi jia you!!!

well...on fridae..we finally had everything settle..(well i dun wish to elaborate cos i'm kinda drowsy now..i'm not on medication but just plain tired..yeah...no woRry)fridae..i cried in school..in our school toilet..i couldn't take it anymore...so i broke dwn..after tt i felt much much better n wanted to haf a tok wif my dear..i told her how i feel n ya..we haf everything settle..ya...baby..i wanna tell you this..i hope tt our r/s will still be the same..n continue be stable n the same..you noe baby..i like you the best when you're in a happy mood..always so good to me..when i'm sad you will like sayang me...make me laugh..do all kinda things to cheer me up..well frankly saying i';m afraid of ur temper..ya...gt phobia..ya..cos is like i very scare it will lead to a strain in our r/s..yeah..baby..i hope tt lock is being open..if it is not you MUst tell me okay?pls pls pls..so tt we can settle it alltogether or else..our r/s will fade n go dwn the drain..ya..baby..i'm sorry for wat i haf done..yah..pls frogive me...yeah...well ya...

~('v')~Baby..i lUrve you...dun ever leave me..~('v')~

heyhey..well kinda long nv blog le hoR..hAHaha...gt mish me?heehee..weLL hMM...kinda alot of things happened..Hmm let's start from HmmMM...on the thursday night nearing friday moRning..yeah...hMM...welL i was acutually on the phone wif my darling..yeah....we were actually kinda quiet..ya...then me was like not really in the gd mood..n besides i dun wanna spoil my baby's mood..thus asking her to go rest..but my precious darling..hahhaa simply just refuse to la..hAHhaa..well wat can i do..then we continue to remain silences n i couldn't take it so i decided to "break the ice"yeah..n tok..then we link our conversation to our r/s evaluation..yeah..then darling was telling me about how she feel pressurized at times when i'm kan chiong..n when i keep saying too many soRries tt irritates her..sOrry baby...yeah..then i told her about how i feel about her temper towards me..n baby promised me not to fa bi qi on me ever again...n also she felt guilty cos she promised already not to throw her temper on me but onces again failed to fufill tt promise...but i told baby nvrm..cos i told her..if tt's her personality n her character..i'll haf to accept it n will accept it..cos the meaning of lurve is to lurve tt person wholeheartedly n to accept the person for wat the person is n not wanting the person to be wat you want tt person to be..well sorry if it sounds confusing..but luRve i guess is this meaning le..yeah!!..Hhahaha...wat you pple think neh?well on wif out conversation..dear suddenly told me about she having this block in her heart tt stopped her from lurving me wholeheartedly..n unfortunately wasnt able to open it..well after i heard wat darling said..i started to break dwn silently..i didn't wan to let baby noe cos i didn't wan her to feel tt she was all to blame n it was her fault..i dun wan my baby to haf those kinda feelings cos i noe those feelings certainly dun feel gd..darling kept asking me you're crying right?i took a deep breath n said no n i'm alright..i wanted to sound strong infront of my darling..sorry darling i lied to you about this..hope you dun get angry wif me n forgib me..i felt a crack in my heart..it was painful..i tried to control but nth woRks..finally after i put dwn the phone wif my darling..i cried..n cried...but the bad happening is yet to come...after putting dwn the phone...not long later i called my darling again..cos i mished her badly..i needed her comfort..but but bUtbut....But but but...my mother came in n saw me on the phone wif my darling..she found out everything le..haiz..n ya..on tt night..she kept watch me till i had my lights off..well i felt as if i was a criminal..well nvrm..it was all worth it..at least i knew tt baby told me the truth about our r/s..yeah...

Baby...i'm really sorry for how i treated u ..sorry baby..sorry..

hahaha...lucky the microsoft word help me to haf a recover of my letter to my bao bao..or else..i'll sure to die on the spot n haf to redo..i just finished typing in those additional words inside the letter and eH..just finish typing out the cords+ lyrics for dear...the song is "how could i live w/o you"..well wat r you thinking?is not a pop soNg...is a christian song la..hahaha...tricked you ain't it??tt's where this idom comes..Nv judge it's book by it's cover..now every1 get it??hMM tt;s the lesson for today la..HAhaha..well thank God for tt..HAhaha..well let me tell you how my dear gt stuck to this song..well my church mate huimin was singing this song..then dear feels sumhow or rather the song is very nice n then she kept humming n humming...n more humming until the song gt stuck into her head now...HAhahAHA..yeah..tt's the history of tt song n y dear wants it....eh..well..dear..ill change the 2nd month anni thing ..yah..welL...hMM..see the time hHAhaha...dear i hope you like the letter i gave to you!!..HAhaha..hMM okay..well i shall go offline now..but wat time i sleeping i still dunno hAHahaha....*YaWnS*....*sTreTChed*...*sEe sTARs*...*lanDed on mY bed*..HAHAhaHAHHAa....

thaNK you for Being my guidiant angel...n always there protecting me..n securing me n assurIng me..you noe sUmhow ur this recent blog tt you scribbled on monday? is like related to my letter?hAHAhaha...hmm a sign of telepathy?hAHahaHaha...welL i hope we haf..hahHAhaa...*sMiILEs wiDeLy from eaR to ear*..Hmm..okay i shalL sign oFf now..If not darling see the time again..i sHall meet my doOm..darling will nv let me Off..Hahaha..welL actually kinda wonder wat darling will do to me..HAHAha..okay so be it then..i gtg le!!... toddLEs!!!*sMIlex..muACks n HuGggGSSsss*...

~~~('v')~~~BAby..i lURve you tiLl the end Of time...~~~('v')~~~

well..yesterday i slept at 4.25..n my dear gt like kinda upset about tt..hahAHaha...okay today was like almost late for school..lucky me run for my bus..HAhahaAA...HAHaha...yah..well then in school was okay not until chem lessons..haiz....i was so freaking tired..sleep in class..hAHahahA..well tt's all...okay..

+_+(BAby...hope our r/s will improve...)+_+

sorry ar...hahha...blogging 2 times hahaha..eH..now is 1.59am...if my darling finds out i sleep sooOo late..I'm sO dead...HahAHa..welL..this is my 2nd time doing this stuFf..haha..ya..cos i nv save...then i made changes to the previous one..then nv save..then haf to do a redo..well nvrm..hahaha...sO...well i waKe up this moRning at 9..well as usual i'm the last to wake up...yeah..last one.....then went to had my teeth brushed n went to serangoon gardens killney kopitiam for my breadfast...yeah...i had mee siam..a packet of fruit tree fresh apple flavour...n had toast bread wif kaya n butter..yeah...dear..ur favourite..nxt time me bring you there to mummM okaY??ahAHA after tt went to buy sum things for lunch..n yeah..proceeded on to get sum goccery stuff..then went hm..not long after i reached hm..my mother n i went for a hair cut..hahAHhaa..this is the 1st time i trying my bro n father's hairstylist...they were always exaggerating about him being so gd in styling hair...n today i went to find out for myself n qiao qiaowell..it was not bad...i shall grade 3 outa 5 stars?yeah...hAHAhaa....welL..had a shOrt fridge now..n layered hair..but hair length still remaiNs..my mother n i gt the same hairstyle Just tt her's it you noe like the sHOrter versIon oF miNe...cos i sTill need to Bun up my haiR..n haHAha now my pOnytail is like half Of my Original hairstyle.HAHaha..well at least my head feels light..n i like my new hairDo HAhahaha...okay Oh oH..now is 2.25am le..n i haben fiNish my woRk..canNOt Blogy le ar..HAhahAHa..byebye...*wavEs Byebye n sPeed Off leavIng this msg for my dear*......n it saYs

~('v')~*baBY i lURve you!!!*...n i miSH you..*fLyIng Hugs n kIssEs*...~('v')~

heehee..sorry ar...sat nv blog..erh...well lets tok about sat first la okay??hMM...at about 8.35 i was in school doing sum deocrating for the school's founders day la..then thurs gt to go back again..(which i'm intending not to la of course..hahah..tell me whu wanna go back?is like exams time man..n moreover this wk gt so many bloody testS!!kilLing me mAn!!*..*sIghHhh*...well then deco deco deco...until 10.30..then i call my darling wif school payphone...wah..then i sway kanna caught by ms gan man!!..sHIt la!!...then lucky tell her i gt sumthing urgent to attend to..then ya..she let me off or else i gt to cut my hair man...hahaha...heng ar...well...ya...then she wans me to go write a letter to her or else monday cut my hair lorh..haiz..*shake heads*..hahAHhaaA...well the best part is yet to come...i met dear..then she arrived at about 12 ya...while waiting...me this piggy..slept..ahAHhaa..then gt on this man smoking...yuCks!!sMellY!!!yeah...then finally he went away..then dear dear came le...after tt..we proceeded on to take 133 to go to suntec for our lunch...we wanted to haf sushi n yogurt...ya..but...we gt a cash tight problem..so we decided to stick to the food court....i had ban mian n darling had zha yu pian me fen tang...yah..then after tt we proceeded on to carefour to get our YOuGUrt!!..hahHAa..man i'm addicted to it!!..It's strawbErrY flavOur!!!yeah!!..then gt strawberry one...hAHAhahA...*yuMMy*..heehEee....yah..then we walked around..then went to arcade to see see ....time was soon catching up wif us...so we toOk a train dwn to orchard...n on the train gt this man..he was fast asleep..then he was like leaning on me..then i told my darling..then she put her arms around me...protecting me....hAhhaHAa..thank you darLing!!!!...then we reached there about 3.45...then sat there to wait for service...hahaha..glad tt my darling felt happy n light after the service..after the service...we had our dinner at the canteen..the food was so YuCKS!!!!!!!..EEEEEe.....so yucks..hAHaha..but nvrm la...still edible la..hAhaha..then after dinner..we str8 away left for out dating...surprisingly my mother allowed me to go out..hAhaha..we went to esplande to sit n admire the scene n enjoy the breeze n peace...although there were alot of pple there..but..still..hahah there was peace...at least i saw my dear's radient smile..yesh...then...we went hm..we were rUNning late and we catched a bus tt was packed like sardiness....then gt this irritating women irritated my lao gong...*bash tt woman upside dwn*...then i alight first ...i ran hm n found tt my parents was not hm yet..so..i called my baby..n toked for 5 mins...then yah..my parents came hm..hahAHAHa...then ya....tt's it..i went to sleep n had a gd nite rest......

+++[..dear dear i lUb you*Hugs n kIssEs*...]+++
~('v')~happy 2nd month anniversary together!!!i luRve you!!!>~('v')~

*waves*..haiz..today sway day man..haiz...sTupid tini lA!!..wah lao...we late 4 her pE lessons 4 8 MInuTES!!!!then punish us for 25 minUtes...sIt at the table tennis for 25 minutes doing nothing...staring Into tHIn aIr man!!...hAHAHAHA....ya..i was like half asleep at the table tennis area...hahAHHAhaa..catch up my beautiful n beauty slEEP!!!hAHahhAa..had been waking up early and sleeping very very laTe..then now haf eye bags like sum donkey man!!hHAHAHaa...*giGGlIng*..HAhahHAa....*sigH manZ*..haiZ...
wat the hell!!...exams are drawing near n i"m sTREsSed..n my haIR is dRoppIng !!!*aRgHHhhh..scReamSSssSSs*...HAHAHaa..yeah...ya..my hair is like getting lesser!!...*freaKs Out*..HahaHAHA....today okay day la...tok to my dear very little..ya...*sOb soB*..coS today gt alot of woRk to do..n eH...n a..kinda stress...yah...nw toking to my baby on the phone..hahaha n eH..hahahhaa illegal conferences..hahaha...thru my baby..HAHAHAH!!!*laughin*...today i crazy le...*sigh*..hahHAa..today i tiNk my mood abit the crazy man!!...aWhile okay n awhile like upside dwn!!!*sIghS*...siaNS...haiZ....okay i shall log off..ya....Byebye every1...haiZ...*sigh siGh*.....

babY!!....i lUrve you!!!!!!!!

heyhey..now blogging in school now..wat the hell is wrong wif today man....haiz...sigh sigh..y the hell must my mother find out about us man!!!...everything also my fault like tt...she..haiz..so biased towards me...everything my brother do is correct...i'm the black sheep in family and he's the white sheep...if they like tt then y they wanna gib birth to me..my mother ever told me actually she didn't want another kid(which is me)..but my daddy wans..so they gave birth to me..since she dun wan me then y the hell wanna gib birth to me...i'm just an xtra stuff hanging around in the house n the xtra person always like do bad things n like make them angry...and spend their precious money...(like spend on me will die like tt..and their precious son dun get it)...waTEver!!!
haiz...i dunno y..whY is my family like tt???y must i be in this famILy when there is nothing for me but more scolding n no attention n care n concern for me???haiZ...
mAYbe i should just you noe rot sumwhere n thus dun need to let my parents like you noe worry about me n care about me..n let them think they nv gib birth to me la..i noe from small i alot of problems(as in health matters)..aways sick n sick...almost gt asma..haiz..but wat can i do??God created me in this manner...wat can i do???
wat the helL??Everything i do is SOOoOOOoo wRong!!!aRgh!!!!!*PIssED Off*....
*sIgh sigh*...i'm like on the verge of losing my darling here...haiZ..haiz....
Life is so unpredictable...and i'm just..haiz...like me...haiz...My mother ar..dunno how to think one nehx...my exams are like sO blOodY near n she gib me this kinda things...she..haiz...not only tt..she will just do anything to punish me to confiscate my hp loRhx..aRgh!!waT kinda mother man!!!....haiz...dUn let me keep pets...aRgH...dun let me do this n let me do tt..haiZ...wat the hell loRhx...i'm just so irritated by My faMILy..I HATE MY famILY!!!!!no1 understands me...often my mother asks me to go to her if i gt any problems...sUmtimes i want to tell her things..but the tone she gibes me just you noe..."scaRes" me away..instead of attracting me to her...she like you noe push me away from her further...haiZ...wat is wRong wiF my mother...and alSO...when i dun eat..she scoldes me...i dun blame her for tt...but when i eat but eat late she also scolds me???wat is wRong manS!!!..i eat also scold dun eat also scOld!!..argH!!!haiz....life just suX!!!...aRgHHhhh*screamIng at the top of my voice as if any min or secs my lungs will just pop out of my MoutH!!!*...aRghHHHHh*EEEEEEEeeEeeeeeeEEeeEeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEeEeeee*.....aRgh!!!!.....sICkening!!!!!....aRghHHHhhHHHhh
back to my dear n I...well i dunno n unsure wat will happen in our future..but i just wan her still in my life...she is my only hapPiness...no1 understands me expect her...not1 gibes me comfort...n haiz...she is my all in all .....hAIz...*Sigh*

dear...I'm soRry for wat i said to you today..soRry soRry soRry...haiZ.....*sigh*....*forgib me??*......

*insisted euodia requested to be recognised .....she helped me edit this blog....*as if alot like tt...only spelling here there

hehee..i smuggled to use the computer to blog..heehee..my brother using the toilet..i tink he is coming out..so..i gt to be fast..well today weather i must say was sure cold..yeah..but thank God for the showers to cool the place gibing me a gd environment!!hahahaha...weLl and erm..today i had alot of food..heehee..during recess i was supposed to haf bread(my mummy packed recess for me..i had pineapple wif ham bread and spring roll and a char siew stuff)..haaha..yeah from crystal jade rest. yeah..then ended up eating my recess at the canteen..i haf nasi lemak..yeah..then today had extra chem lessons..!!eeEEee....can't stand chem lessons..makes me sleeP!!!hahahhaa...yeah..then after tt dear bring me till the walkway then she left for cca..
back hm..i watched tv for awhile n took my nap...n now..hahaha..i gtg...i doing my h/w tomolo gt chem quiz!!EEe...yeah..okay take care every1!!!

bAby..sorry about today man!!...soRry!!!!

heyhey i'm back to blog again..heehee had been kinda lazy for the past few days..yeah..so now i'm going to try to keep up the updating of my bloggy..yupPPss..yesterday my dear n me msg until 3 am in the morning..then we both went to sleep...n the nxt morning i was "kicked"outa bed at 7.40 by my mother cos i gt church..n my practice was at 8.30am..*sigh*..while i was practicing..i kept yawning non stop..hahaa..but to God be the gLory..i didn't fall asleep during the sermon given by my church pastor..yeah!!...*THank God for tt*..hehehe..then my brother n dad had to stay back to do more practicing for the upcoming church anniversary..therefore my mother n i decided to haf KFc as our meal (at heartland)..then we went hm by 53 bus..then when i "touch dwn"hahaha...i turned on the telelvision to see wat it was showing...heehee..then i was learning for my upcoming chinese test n watching tv at the same time..well i was basically mutli tasking..yeah..then...at about 5+..my brother n my dad returned hm from church...yUps...upon studying n reading...i slowly fell asleep...okay..then when i woken up...my mother decided to go j8 for our dinner..we actually planned to haf sukaei sushi..but..later we ended up in the food court..hahaha...nvrm..after all it is still food n it is just to fill our stomachs isn't it?hahaha...then my mother went to shop at seiyu and bought 2 handbags...n hahaha i gt one for myself too...heehee...it's white in colour..my mother n i bought the same pattern..(ain't we sisters??ahahahah)..ya..but she bought the black one..yeah!!...then we went to shop summore..
i later decided to get myself a pair of high heel sandles..yeah...ya..from bata...brand is maria clara..ya...heehee....okay..then we proceed hm!!...had my bath n called leona for my chinese foolscape paper..cos i don't haf space to write in my lian pi book already..then i called my dear to ask her wat time she picking me up from hm...then i told her about asking leona for the gao zi...then..haiz..insensitive me didn't ask for her..haiz....baby..forgive me...sorry for being so self centered and selfish..sorry..sorry..baby will you forgive me??plS??soRry baby..sorry sorry..haiz...are you okay?haiz...is my fault..i'm sorry im sorry...haiz....yah..then after called leona i called my dear to tell her tt i gt the gao zi frm leona le...haiz....i'm sorry.......*aPologises*..hope you forgive me....

Baby..im soRry...soRry for being insensitive to you...i'm sorry will you forgive me??I'm soRry....i'm sorry....(kneels for forgiveness)....sorry..........

GUITARS ROCK AND RULE MY WORLD!!
-sigh-
yue chup in
i miss those times too!bwhabhwa

HEehEE!!!..HEyhEY jillIAn yoyo!!!..thanKS buD!!hAHaHaha..thanKS a MillIon..but..heheee..blOg sTill under cONsTruction ya?yeah!hAHAHa..welL today..sad caSe man!!..i haf a server sitff neck!!it's a killer...i cant even turn my head..couldn't stand properly n sit properly bços onces i stand up..the pain would strike me!!..*oUCh..man is painnful*..a word of advise for pple out there!!...Sleep preperly!!!hahaha..man is really paIN..hMm..well today was just boredom..at hm slagging n rotting away..hahAHa...well..i guess i'll start to do my blog more often now after i haf this nice nice blog tt was created by the pro n genius JILLIAN!!yeah!!..jillian bow...bow!!hahahaha..just kidding!!man i must say i mish all those crappy times wif you!!hAHAHa...kinda lost touch from all those crap tt i used to say..hahah!!!...
today i haf eng tuition..yeah..and i made up my mind i'm going to improve my eng!!so tt i can write proper english!!yEsh!!!*sayS out loud*..i"m going to ImpROVE!!!..say it wiF me now...ImpROvEmENT is cOming..maKe way make way..HahahAHAHA!!
Oh Oh..jillIAn..can you also make for me those stuff tt you can like sign guestbk??
oHoh..you noe the link to artisticc??you can put this webbie in...http://www.corbis.com
yeah..this webbie...thanks!!..AHahHAa...eEEh..tt one can say as photographs oR art also can la...eH...the description of me will be sent to ur emaIL..thankS Buddy again!!!!thanKS a zILlioN!!!!*hEehee*oHoH..can help me do a backgrOUnd coLouR also??wat coLour you think is nice??black can???hMM..my blog will be in uR hanDs now...heeheee....
bAby!!..me can blOg again..So muST pop By okAY?then Nxt time we haf a webBIe..then i can lInk in alSO!!hAhahAA...Byebye...
loVe you always foRever..had been mishing you for those days tt i was not in ur warm n secure arms..tt protects me n to shield me from all harm!!thank you babY!!!i'm sO in luRve wiF you!!!!*mUAckSSsS*...

jillian speaks:
ana old chump..
dun not be sad...
for u have ur chilli.
she has spiced up ur life.
dun not fear about wad shesays.
trust and have faith in ur rs with chilli.
she loves u alrite?
chill
-yue-taymos23

thnk for u for this moment..
i got to say how beautiful u are..
love u chilli

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hey..well i'm back to blogging aGaIN!!!..HAHAHa..well today was kinda a okay day...not really very bad though..hahhaa okay okay..tt's all for now..me gtg to eat diNNer!!!hHAHHAA...
loVe you lao gong!!!
sUgar donut luRves chIlli padI!!!!