well...finally the truth is out about y my bao bei is not replying any of my msges n all tt..cos her mother found out about us already..therefore confiscating her hp n i guess all communication methods..even the internet..i guess she is banned from using it..+sigh sigh+..i found out all these thru her sister..yah..cos today msg her..then i need my toolbox back desperatly..yah..then her sis msg me back..told me about it..yup..


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dearie..i will wait for you until this hurdle ends..i promise this to you..i will wait for your return..i will..promise..+gou gou+..i just wanna tell you tt even though i cannot tok to you..nor you might even not haf a chance to see this msg to you..i still wanna say tt i will still love you as much as ever despite the distances..i hope after we gt over this hurdle..our love for each other will grow stronger..n may our bond btw each other strengthen our r/s..i will always love you..n no matter wat..this time i will not make the same mistake again..promise!!..dear..i promised you a cheesecake from baker's inn isn't it??when the day you haf back ur hp n all those freedom back le..then i on that day itself bring you go eat hao ma?ur 5th anniversary the present still wif me..i wanna pass it to you..it's ur favourite chocolate tt i bought..i wanna give you a surprise..i really wanna meet you n see you..i really mish you..haiz..i will wait for tt day..promise!!...+Muacks muacks+..i love you...
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back to my day..well..today was considered a happy day..well during the worship, as i was playing the keyboard..i was singing also..n i felt very happy..but i just dunno y..hahhaa..but gt this really blank filling inside me..while i play..i kept singing..n i sang will all my might..n i felt really happy about it..i guess sumtimes when things in ur life is going the way you didn't plan...you just gt to pray n let it out..for me..is thru singing..n maybe dancing..hahhaa..of course when no1 is around la..hahhaa+shy shy+..actually me like dancing one..yah..i find it really nice...well...yah..after service..went to holland Village to have our lunch at secret recipe..yeh..well it was really filling though..at least i shared wif my mummy..yeah..then after tt had the orange peel cheesecake n the chocolate n banana cake..yeah..boy boy tt chocolate cake was really big..hahhaa..we shared..yeah..hahaha...well guess wat..every bite tt i took from the cheesecake really reminded me of my dear..i dunno wat she is going thru now..but i noe she is really having a hard time..i can imagine her in her rm..doing nth..i wanna go pei her..go make her laugh again..i just wanna hear her voice..i guess every phonecall tt her frends made..n unable to answer it..only hearing her sis says she is not around will hurt her..+heartache for my baby+..dear..dear..i wanna share this burden wif you..but i cannot replace you..if i could..i would..the only thing i can do is to wait for you..promise..i will not anyhow think..will wait..i will wait...after eating..we left n wendy sent us to bona vista mrt station..then make me think of dear n me n leona..cos leona wanted to make her card..yah..then waited very long..haiz..memories..filled my mind...then we went to bugis..go art frend..get my stuff..then bought my membership card..will be wif me in a month or 3wks..yah..but altogether everything cost me about 35.70..yah..then after tt we took a bus to suntec..i went to this fashion..gt myself a skirt tt i had been looking for, for ages le..yeah..then bought it..it cost me $21..yah...haiz..today spent alot of money..but was happy..yeah..now happily wif my new skirt..it's jeans material n plain n simple looking..just wat i had been looking for..comfortable n nice!!hahhahhaa..+happy+..yeah..gt hm..had my dinner..watch tv..well..tt's all for my day....+mish my dear every single day..been tinking alot of her...+..dear..i wanna tell you tt i mish you alot alot!!...+muacks+..i love you...

i'm worried for my dear..no1 is replying me..called my didi..she nv pick up..cannot contact dear..haiz..wat in the world is happening?..haiz..can sUm1 help me???is it dear dun wan me le?

well..today suppose to go out wif my heather didi..but bcos of her mummy tt took
leave so the outing wif her was cancelled..so thinking fast, decided to meet johnston..my =B=U=D=D=y=..yeah, decided to do sum catching up wif him n also to return his brother's comic book(slam dunk) tt had been wif me since like last nov?imagine..it's like a year!!..hahaha..well the book sure had alot of dust when i first took it out..yeah well..lucky he could make it today...or else i'll be trapped at home like a bird in it's cage..having no freedom in it's life..hahaha..literature literature..oh wat the hell..there i go again..hahaha..well continuing..well..after much arrangement..we decided to meet at j8 at 11.30..yups..but guess wat..both of us was late..haha but i arrived there earlier..boarded the bus at 11.30..yeah..well..he could make it bcos his frends tt asked him yesterday couldnt confirm..so he decided tt he will turn dwn the 3 frends n accompany me today..man man..wat a great buddy i haf..hahahaha...well..yupz..while waiting for my 53 or 156 bus..i saw my uncle..yups..well we chatted for awhile..not long later..both of our bus arrived at the same time..hahaha..we parted n went our own separate ways..yeah..then finally arrived at j8..then walk walk..cos he haben come ma..yah..then..went to shops n haf a browsing session..j8 now has sum new shops..boy i must say..they are way way pretty decorated..it really attracts pple..finally he arrived at j8..then we continued to make our way to PS..yuPS!!...then watched ragrats go wild..yah..actually i wanted to catch the loony tones in action..but he already watched it..n so is wishing stairs...+grrrr+...so..yah..only movie was ragrats..ahhahaa..but the movie was kinda cute!!..hahaha..i like tommy tt small kid..man he is one creative advanturous =B=A=B=Y=...hahhaa..yeah..well the movie is at 2.20..yups..so we decided to go to haf our lunch first..at burger king..well actually i didn't wanna haf anything..but thanks to johnston..he n his analogy about he coming out wif me n emphasizing tt he turn dwn 3 of his frends just to come out wif me..Gosh Gosh...He is one real nagger..hahaha..well mei pan fa..so eat lorg..had chicken nuggets n onion rings n drinks..yeah..well...all of a sudden johnston tok about les..then there he goes preaching thru'out the WHOLE OUTING..man..i gt to like walk away n to like not hear man..Gosh..he is one hell of a preacher...man..i couldn't take it..i was baiscally suffering..but i wanna say one gd pt about this nagger..He is one hell of a persevering person..even though i like brush him away about his lecture..he continued..n moreover for the whole OUting..+faints+..He keeps toking about how bad is les..n all those stuff...hahahhaa..well outa pt already..back to story..well after eating..decided to go paragon..yuPs..then me use the toliet there...+meimei+..hahaha...then actually he wanted to play pool one..hahhaa...but man this auntie here kept dragging the time..hahaha..until no time to play..haha..but anyway even the pool outlet was like packed..yeah..so..yah..hahhaa..he kept pastering me to play..but sturbborn me just refused..this sturbborness i inheritated from my dear..hahahhaa..learnt from her one..hahaha..well..in the outing also kanna bullied by tt fellow..wah piang..his hits ar..darn pain n impact ar..wah piang..no commets sia..hahah..the worse one was he punched my upper back n he punched at the middle of my back..where the spine lies..wah piang...PAIN siA
then in paragon walk walked around cos he nv walked around inside be4..yeah..then went to metro..sprayed armani white..+faints..my fav+..then went to spray dear's perfume on the tester..let him smell..then he go throw it away while i want it..+pissed off+..i was like wah fark la...was angry lorh...+heartbroken lorh+..then i was like all the way sad liao loRh..all thanks to HIM!...+arghhhh..flaming wif anger+...arghhHH....shit laH!!..then when he tok to me i asked him to get lost...wah piang..haiz..then after tt we went to taka..gt my family cheese cakes..yups..the jap one..1 for 1.50..let him try then he liked it..Of course ma..my dear intro me one ma...hor dear?my darling of course gt gd taste la..cos cheesecake my dear's fav woR..so must haf de best..hahahhaa...yeah..then walk walk..then went back to pS..well both of us was caught in the rain..n i was weT..+argh..hate getting wet+..more over i was wearing my sleeveless blouse..yah..then like freezing cold can..in cinema also like tt..cold until my hands all turned paled..yah..
aft movie..went to suntec..then to marina..sat at mos while i haf my drink..then we went our separate ways n gt hm to watch the last episode of holland V..yeah..i walked until my calfs are all suan n pain..haiz..well..tts about it..
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i will leave everything as the way it is..i shan't do anything to it...i hope everything will turn out just find for both of us....dear..you will still be my dear....i will wait for you...this i promise you+muacks muacks+

haiz...still haben get anything from my dear..well..called her..she rejected it..sigh..well..haiz..dunno la..wat she wanna do let her do la..me already cannot do anything..i tried all ways n methods le...i tried to tok to her tried to get hold of her..also no USE!!..watever la yah?can't take it anymore..another day of this kinda things..i'm xploding...come on..whu won't man..is like..i dun ever noe wat the fark is going on..i'm in the dark n confused!...yayaya..i wonder how long will this silences continue..watever it is..i'm gonna leave the thing alone..probably tt would be better?just doing myself a favour..to keep myself bz so tt i will not think so much...nxt yr my exams le..Leslie told me tt me must work hard..so i'm just going to do tt..n i mAke sure i enter sec4...yeah!!.. no more retaining no MORE!!!!....or else i won't be in school le..n i won't haf an education!!..yup!!
well today woke up around 8+..yah..then hmm..suddenly me so guai can..me go str8 do my eng tuition h/w can..hahahhaa..well finally it's done about hmm..at 10+..yeah..then watch tv...yeah..then yah..as usual keep smsing my dear..But she stiLl won't replY mE!!..*ArghHHH*...yah..dun tok about it...then watch bend it like beckham vCd again..then after in the midst of the show then i not feeling well..then i puked out all my lunch n breadfast cos i had my 2 meals together..yah..puked twice..i didnt force..but yah..while watching decided to msg my didi n asked her how is she..yah..then yah..tomolo going out..after smsing..decided to tok to her on the phone ...yah..catch things up wif each other..yuP!!..it was long since i ever toked to her yuP!!..well i guess our frendship is back to normal?hahhaa..God noes..dunno...well..yah..chatted until almost 3..then went back to my compre..yup!!..then yeah..now online cos i just finished my tuition h/w...
die le la..my toolbox wif my dear..how to get back from her when she dun even wanna tok to me or reply ME????GOSH!!..i cannot do my art le la...haiz....wait until she gd mood then ask her..sigh sigh...our r/s is like a rollercoaster..aRghhh....EEEE..aRGHHH....*xploding*..well...so be it pa...wat she wants let it be..let it be let it be..let beee let it beee...hahahah....hahaha...i gt to jia you!!!..well..thanks to everyone whu listened to all my complains about this matter..thankS every1...n thanks to those whu cheered n comforted me telling me tt they are there for me!!THanks everyoNE!!!+MuacKSSSSSssSSS+

wat"S wRong??i dUN get iT!!!!!!!!!!!!sUm1 tell me wat"S wRONG!!!!!!!!!!

well..today is the 5th day my dear nv tok to me or sms me or emailed me already..i dun even noe wat's happening to her...!!!+PIsses Off wif myself+.....aRghHHHh...i'm gonna xplode soon or later only!!...aRghHHHHHHH..+fark fark fark fark fark up wif myself+...i noe it's my fault..but..i said a sorry already..n not only once..i tried doing everything to get her attention wat more do you want from me..i'm not a sponge you noe?i'm sick n tired of being a girl tt doesn't haf temper...now you see me temper dear?i do haf a temper..you should noe it when you're not wif me...right?you haf seen the true me..n this is me..i tried to be nice..in the email i noe you misunderstood me..but i already apologised n all tt already...i even xplain to you wat i meant i didn't say i dun like ur frends..i like them..i dun hate them or get jealous over them,i'm not those kind will get jealous wif no rhym or reason..i just need more love n care n attention from you...is tt possible?i dun understand dear..i dun!!...i simply cant..can you xplain to me..dun everything also dun tell me things..i wanna noe n i wanna understand wat's going on...u need to noe..i'm ur stead you noe?i'm not placed on the display self for nth...make use of me..tell me wat you're feeling..then our r/s can build up n be stronger..if you dun tell me things n take things upon urself..then how you wan me to understand you when you're going thru this kinda things?i'm in the dark..i dunno wat to do..can you like enlighten me n make me understand things?i noe tt time was ur OS..n i noe it's very impt..i didn't ask you to go out wif me...i noe when you're trying to find a job i was not really happy cos the time i'm going to spend time wif you is going to be lesser...i just dun wanna feel the gap tt i felt at tt period of time again..i need you...i just need you....if you dun understand any pt..pls tell me..so tt i can clarify everything wif you n tell u wat i feel...
sorry for my temper...i just cannot take it anymore..this is driving me crazy n mad...i cannot concentrate..everyday been thinking which part i did wrong..which part did i made you get angry...n thinking of reasons y you nv reply me..can you clear tt part to me?i really dunno...if i'm the problem then tell me...i just dun wish to haf silent treatment anymore..tok to me darling tok to me..i wanna noe everything n go thru everything you're feeling..if any part of me made you dislike me..tell me..i'll change..haiz...arghHHHH....you noe i'm those kind when haf stead i will spent as much time as possible wif them..cos i noe the chances of me going out is very little..n you noe i cannot go out often..n i cannot stay out late...tt's y every min every second i spend wif my stead is very impt to me...n you"re very IMPORTANT TO ME pls dear..tell me..tell me....wat's happening....

gd morning every1...well here i am for another day of entry on my blog..updating on my days tt i didnt blog..well it was sun rite?yup..well..i was all dressed up formally for my church frend's wedding held at the oriental..the worse thing tt happened to me was my heels was giving me blisters n i had to like plaster myself wif so many handiplast can..Oh goodness...
well..the wedding ceremony was kinda cool..cos everytym i attend a wedding is their banquet only..but this time i gt to witness it..+smileS+..yeah!!..cool isn't it..well it might not be cool to you..but it sure is coOL to me..hahaha..every1 has their 1st time yeAH?well..yuP..continuing..we had a phototaking sessions..had a family photo,had the music ministry taken wif the bride n groom,had the singles taken wif the bride n groom and alot more..tt day was like wow..so many pics taken..well..nvrm..i'm okay n quite happy about tt..cos when i haf the photos..i can put it only bloggy rightY?+feeling cold+...well..the weather is kinda chilly nowadays ain't it?yeah..so all those out there must be careful k?mus take care of health..esp dear dear?haben forgotten about you..been waiting patiently for ur replying of sms..i dunno if you still read my blog or read my email the other day tt i sent to you...yah..well..tomolo is hari raya le..well dear..enjoy ur new yr yeah?+muacks muacks+..love you baby!!...


okay about today..hmmm..well..i was awoken by my backache..yah...well..i duno wat the hell is wrong wif me again..yah..tt time wanted to see a doc but didn't..yah..so..aiya nvrm la..heck...today woke up quite early hor?see the time?well..today going to buy my school bOoks..n msg tt amanjeev..she nv reply me..dunno wat time she gibing me her bOoks can..+sigh sigh+...well..nvrm la..i shall ring her up later...dear..today you sure bz preparing for tomolo right?n maybe you might be going m'sia?i dunno..haiz..just hoping to recieve a msg n sms from you soon yeah?


well..tt's all for my day...not really fruitful though..yah..okay gtg..byebye..take care..love you baby n always..+muacks muacks+

dear..i hope when you read my email then you noe wat i meant..i noe i asked you to delete the email...but i hope after my explaination then you will not be angry wif me..sorry for the comparision..sorry...sorry to offend you w/o me knowing..sorry dear..hope to be forgiven....sorry

i guess im a bad stead pa..even my mistakes..i made it over n over again...still nv change n learn a lesson....i'm just..haiz...one woRd...U S E L E S S..i can't even make my dear happy..after her OS i must make her feel sad wif my stupid darn farking emaIL...haiz...sorry dear...alot of things i wanna say to you....but..haiz..nvrm la....i'll just write my feelings in the diary you've given me pa....sorry

haiz...

well...no email either..sigh...dear?
+walks away+...

i guess you're avoiding me?haiz..sorry....all the best for ur MCQs n ur Dnt paper...
byebye

+haiz+..aft tuition come online
then hoping to see my dear's mail or her phonecall or her being online..but all also dun haf..whenever the phone rings..i will always hope it would be her to return call..cos i called her then no1 answered..haiz..but neither did she return tt call..haiz..dear you still angry wif me ma?haiz..when you not angry le then you reply my email yah?or just call me?haiz..i wish tt i hear ur voice now..but i noe if i call you..no1 will pick up...haiz..yesterday couldn't sleep...thinking all about my dear..n my tt watever word tt i said...+apologise to dear+..sorry...haiz..dear????????????

all i can say now is a sigh word...dear you recieve my email already?hope you did...well..i today no mood to blog nor haf any appetite to eat my food at all..sigh sigh...+broken hearted+

heyhey..i just came back from my grandma's bday dinner..well..we went all the way to bedok to haf just a dinner..oH man..well did enjoy my dinner..+darn full now+..sheesh..well yup!!..hahahhaa..i had my shark fin's sOup!!..wahAHhahaa..hadn't haf tt for the longest time..finally today i gt the chance to taste it!!..+yumM+..well..today my darling not gd mood...+sayang sayang+...dear dear..dun sad sad yeah?+love love+..heehehee..well i gt sumthing for you..heheehhee...anOther surprise!!..whahaha..hope you like it..i just did it today..heehee...it's bLue in coLoUr..has a quite nice smell..hAHhaa..well..just hope you like it nehx yeah baby?heehee..then you take picture of it yeah?then send it to moi!!!..hahahhaa..well hari raya is coMing..then darling cannot go out wif me...+sob soB+..haiz...then only after tuesday then can go gai gai...haiz..dear dear...i'm mishing you badly..really badly man!!...Haiz hAiz...well..todayi guai neh...cos today i did my h/w nehs..wahHAhahahhAa...+bhb+..well..yeah..sO..hMMm...wat else shOUld i say?
oHoH..to my dearest didi..well dun bother about wat pple say about you..as long as you didn't do it..you gt nth to be afraid of yeaH?hMM...if all ur frends dun wan you..still gt me n ur kor ma..hAHahhahAa..right?hahhaa...gt we 2 enough le la..dun be sad sad le okay?come come da sao sayang..hAHahhaa...+sayang sayang+..hahhaa...well..okay..tt's all about it for today's blog entry...well i need to go mend my 2nd blOggy..heehee..LOve ya dear!!+muacks muacks+

++struck by a sever headache++
wah piang..i thot my headache would be okay in the evening...now it had gone worse..just finished my tuition..me come online hoping to see my dear..but well..sad to say..she didn't..yuPSs..well..nvrm nvrm...hMmmMM..wonder how she did for her chemistry paper today?hMMm..+wondering+..wanted to call her..but then hesitate..bcos i dun wanna disturb her ma..yup!..+headache w H O l e d a y ..aiyo!!..i cannot take it!!!..Shit man!!!!...+banging my head against the wall furiously+...eEeee..dear!!where are you???+screamMing+.....

today was a day of again routine..watch tv in the morning..so half of my day is gone..yeah..well aft much of my mother's nagging..i went to do my h/w..heehehee..well me just slacking everyday...did my eng tuition compo..then..rested my eyes for awhile..then i woke up again to continue wif my compo..well finally after much headaches n backaches..i finished my compo..yup!!..finallY..well aft this blogging..i gt my school homewoRK to do..yah..finally my mother left my rM...aiYO!...nag nag nag..can't take it...*walks away*..well...lets see..nth much to blog la basically..life at home is dead boring loRh...haiz...how i wish..i dun haf to fail my bloody farking eng man!!...ARGH!!!..fark fark fark!!...irritating!!..how the hEll did i manage to fail my eng?aIN't i a genius?aRghhH..wat the helL man!!...+irritated+..sigh sigh...haiz..i better get back to my eng before my mother gives me a earful of nagging again...aRghhh..Byebye...lOve you..

today was total boredem!!!...sHEesH!!!...dunno wat i'm doing today loRh..just a sudden feeling of fat!!!today suppose to wake up early early go joggin wif my daddy..but then my daddy n i overslept..hhahahaa..so the jog will be postpone..hahahaha..+sigh sigh+..my darling now studying her chemistry..then she so stress...haiz..how i wish i can help my darling..i guess is 'due to her overstress then will become like tt...brainblockage..sigh sigh..you noe tt's the worse thing tt can happen to you when it comes to xams..n especially it would get worse when you study the day before..man..tt's simply horrible!!...*gosh gosh*..sigh sigh..after this wk then can see my dear darling..her last paper is her dnt...haiz..dear you must jia you!!k?+jia you jia you jia you+..yah..nv gib up understand?just continue to work hard hard..n just remember do ur best!!can already!!yeah baby?Love you darling..
sigh sigh..tomolo i gt maths tuition!!!..aiyo aiyo!!..you noe i can't wait for the first 2wks of dec cos my maths tuition teacher going to australia n bali!!..hahahaha..then i'm off for 2wks..hahaha..ain't i terrible?this kinda student also haf..hAhahaha..+evil laugH+..wat to do??i'm born like tt...+wahahahaha+...but frankly speaking i really haf to buck up on my studies loRh..hahaha..well saying is much easiler than doing though..but this tym round i gt to make an effort to do it!!yeah!!..so i shall work on my bloody farking english tt cos me to fail my overalL!!..haiz...wat the hell!!..nvrm nvrm..i shall defeat the eng sub!!yeah baby!!..ahahaha...
well..tt's about it....okay..i'll be back surfing the net!!...byebye..tOoDleS!!

wat a dunno day
+sigh sigh+..wat am i suppose to do now?im feeling so empty inside me..haiz...+dunno wat to do+...now surfing some BOring net...dunno wat my dear doing now..probably sleeping pa..+Sigh siGH+...dunno la..haiz.. W H A T E V E R

well..boy bOy boY today was a tiring day sia..well today i played the main(on the grand piano) for today's worship..+embrassed+...today i made quite a number of misTakEs..but i must said i tried my best not to haf a sudden stop when i panic or when i play the wrong cords..but sumhow or rather..i did more concentration than putting feelings into it..so it was more of technique than feelings..so..well i gt to buck up on tt part..well but at least my hand didn't freeze..cos when i'm nervous n stressed up..my hands will turn icy cold..yeah..so lets see..wat else..after church service..we went to haf lunch..yups!had chichen rice..hehehehe....after tt..my mummy n me headed for hm..to put our things..then off we went to suntec..yup!!..well God noes y i wanted to go there..hAhaha...cos i really didn't noe..well actually i wanted to eat sushi for my dinner..but..my mother decided tt we should haf steamboat..yuP!!..guess how loNg we ate?2 sOlid hOUrs...yeah!!..1st time man!!..normalLY we will haf a very fast dinner..but today was acceptable..coS it was a BUffeT!!..hAHhaaa..about 9+..we ended our dinner..n off we headed for hM!!..+hm sweet hm+...MAn , nth beats being at hm!!..hAHhaa..well okay!!..tt's all for now..sIgh sigh...yesterday n today i nv tok to my dear...while on the way hm in the buS..i kept thinking about my darling...*mish miSh*...i love you...+muacks muacks+...HAhahaha
well this msg is specially for my ben didi..well..didi...watever you do..as long as it makes you happy...just go ahead!!foLlOW ur heart man!!..yeah?*jia you*..well i sure did mish my dear didi..well after ur kor finish her xaMS, we go gai gai!!..yah?hAHahhaa..well loVe you!!Muacks

finally finally finally!!...+phew+..well finally all is properly done up..well i was amending sum stuff on my bloggy..well notice any changes to it?yeah..n well i decided tt i shan't make my words go up n dwn..bcos i find tt it's really messy n hard to read+jie now i understand ur difficulty in reading my emails..sorry+..yup..well..i shall begin reporting my day's report..Hahah..here we go...
well..woke up this morning at about 9.30..n then played my gameboy for awhile..after tt went to haf my teethbrush..my face washed..had my breadfast n playing my gameboy again at the same time..remember multi-tasking is my forte..+gosh today is a day of total addiction on my gameboy+..aahahah..yeah..hhhaha...continuing..after my breadfast..my brother n i proceeded on to the swimming complex at serangoon stadium, i broke my own record..in total i swam 35 laps..yup!first 4 continuous laps..then nxt 31 continuouS laps..+smile+..i'm totally in deep shit..nw my arm is peeling..+gosh+..i really wonder if it will be over before nxt wk..n the peel is really very bad!!+pulling my hair+..yups..so much for my sun Burns again..continuing on..after the swim..my bro n i gt our lunch from S11..n then headed home shortly..
after lunch..rested for awhile..n back to my gameboy again!!+oh man..i'm totally hooked on to it already+..heehee..really hooked!!..Haha...yups..played for the whole afternoon n neglacted my homework n stuff..mummy was quite angry wif me just then..hahhaa..but..rebellious me..just chose to ignore..+sorry mummy+..hahaha..after tt..my mother decided to have our dinner at serangoon garden..yup!!..so left hm at 6 n reached hm at 7..yup..ain't we fast?ahahah...well..after holland V..i had my bathe..then here i am..on the computer..haha..mummy was nagging at me..bcos i'm sumwhat wasting her electricity..haha...mother relax la!!...okay...looking at the time..i odd to say a gdbye..yeah?
baby..hope you enjoy ur concent today?though i'm unable to see you or meet you..but ur voice just sweetens all my heart!!..was really happy tt i gave you a call!!..hahaha..dear..i mish you n love you always

...+shEesH+..guess wat..my nxt wk the plan darn pack man!!!*aiyOYoyO*...wed grandma's bday..then thurs maybe going out..then at night gt tuition..friday free..sat gt cellgrp..n then sun gt church...+reminds me of me playing the grand piano..n i'm playing alONe+..sHEesH!!!then after church str8 will go to my frend's wedding..yuP!!..pack pack pack!!!*Oh goodness*....

going crazy n nuts w/o my darling
lets see...eH...you noe wat..i just woke up not long ago..HAhaha..i woke up at 10.45..if my brother hadn't said the time..i guess i'll still be sleeping...*GOsH*..heyhey..i bring gd news..hAHhaa..my face is almost done wif the peeling..BUT..i still lOok HOrrbIBLE!!..when i go Out..pPLe still staRe at me..BUt..well..i gt no pRObleM wif tt man!!..Hahaha cos i"m alL coMfOrtabLE!!..yeah babY!!toking about baby...*greifing away*...haiz..I"M MISHING MY DARLING in aCTION!!!...haiZ..y Y Y??where is my darling dear neh?haiz..yesterday waited for her to come online in the afternooN..but to my disaPPointment..she didn't come...*Sigh siGH*...+aRgh+....waT the helL!!!...ONE MORe wK to go nEhx!!!..sHIT lARgh...*tahun taHUN*...
*fark man..nOIsy drILling*..wah piaNG..you noe i coULd haf slept LOnger if there wasn't any dRilLing???daMN the dRIllS!!!!!....*$^#&#^%@&@^#&!^!%@^#*&$)#($^#*@*&$^*#&#$^@%@(*&$*#$()@(&*^$*#$)@(&$(@(*$(@^(*&@^#....deaR!!!where are you!!..hAahhaa..you not wif me..i gt no1 to comPLain to le la!!!n see see see..i'm scoLding bad woRds le!!!!*aRghhhhhH*..i'm going to xPLode soON!!!...EEEEEE aRRRRRRrGGGGGGHHHHHhhHHHhHh......
sHEesH!!!!......goSH!!!!!..i'm going NUTs!!!!...i'm going craZy w/o mY daRLing!!!

+screaMIng+...daRLING WHERE ARE YOU??...+screaMing+

heehee..well i added the pic ..hAhaha...well i shall update more pic when we go out together..HAHahaha*sMIlez*..hAHhahahAHHAa...
....falLAlalAlalaalala.....

heyhey..well finally today is the last day of me returning to school..yeah!!*yahOO*..ahahha..well..i today go school cos ms gan wanna see me..wait wait wait..be4 you think of anything..i didn't do anything wrong n is nth..she just wanna see me about my maths xam papers..yeah...well...i went to school..was actually late again...hAHaha..but lucky ms gan nv scold me..hahaha..well she quicky went thru all my work..n after 10mins i went hm..well aint tt fast?but i find it's a waste of time nehx..cos like go school then go for 10mins only..then come back hm already..but..well for the sake of my maths..i'm willing to do anything n everything!!yah
well my day was quite bORing though..yeah..bcos i gt nth to do..haiz..sigh sigh..mishing my dear..while walking to school...i looked at the neoprints tt my dear n i took..hahaha..well it sure did bring back memories sia!!hahahaa...mish my darling dear...sigh sigh..well..i haf to tahun another about nearing to a wk..then i can see her le..Hahahah*yiPPY*..then can celebrate our 5th anni..Hahaha..i was thinking of going seoul garden muMM..hahhaa...yeah..coOL!!!*smILe*..then i can try my darling's cooking..she is a great cook i must say..but actually frankly saying i haben try her cooking be4..hAHahhaA*giggles*..hahaha...lao po nv try her coOking..but her didi did...chay!!..hahahaha..nvrm nvrm..hAHhaaa...well i can't wait for her to get over wif her xamS!!..ahHAHAhaa*screaMing*..hHahhaaha..
'+sigh+..no pics to see..haiz...now helping melissa(my old classmate) find sum designs on her hanna for her church..yah!!..well okay..see you guys around!!LOve you BABY!!...dear..you read my email le ma?how come you nv replY me??*sigh sigh..sob sob..sniff sniff*...

CaN't Takes My Eyes Off You By Andy Williams
you're just too gd to be true
can't take my eyes off you
you'd be like heaven to touch
i wanna hold you so much
at long las love has arrived
and i Thank GOd i'm alive
you're just too gd to be true
can't take my eyes off you


Pardon the wat tt i stare
there's nothing else to compare
the sight of you leaves me weak
there are no words left to speak
but if you feel like i feel
pls let me noe tt it's real
you're just too gd to be true
can't take my eyes off you


I love you baby and if it's quite alright
i need you baby to warm the lonely night
i love you baby, trust in me when i say
oh pretty baby, don't bring me dwn i pray
oh pretty baby, noe tt i've found you, stay


And let me love you baby, let me love you


you're just too gd to be true
can't take my eyes off you
you'd be like heaven to touch
i wanna hold you so much
at long las love has arrived
and i Thank GOd i'm alive
you're just too gd to be true
can't take my eyes off you


I love you baby and if it's quite alright
i need you baby to warm the lonely night
i love you baby, trust in me when i say
oh pretty baby, don't bring me dwn i pray
oh pretty baby, noe tt i've found you, stay


oh pretty baby, trust in me when i say
oh pretty baby....


well..hahaha..Hmm..this song is specially delicated to my darling
hahhaa..well dear..i hope you like this song...you sick sick again..*sigh*..
dear ar..haiz..ur xams going to finish le..so dun stress le yah?k?+muacks muacks+
I hope tt make you better..yeah?yeah
well..my face is apparently peeling even worse..yah..so..*sigh*..well applied sum cream..hope it will woRk pa..GUess wat...i gt to attend my grandma's birthday nxt wed!!..wat the hELl...sHEesH!!..y must everything come all at one sHort..n i haf to go out n let them see me wif this face...watever!!...i"m dead...haiZ..
haiz..tts one bad news..for today..n my day started wif sum boring chem lesson at school..well..actually it wasn't tt bad..yeah..hhahHAa...nvrm..after school..went hm..yeah..then laze around at hm..haiz..guess wat..i said i wanted to study hard for my eng...but..hahaha seems like i'm not doing it...+anna YOU mUSt do IT!!!you mUST!!+yah!!...well i will!!PRomISE!!!..hahaha..my darling went to see a doc again..now dunno wat happen to her..Hope she will alright...yuP!!..darling..i loVe you more n more each n every day..Yeah!!!..i loVe you!!!

well..sorry ar..haben been blogging for the past few days..well so where shall i begin?Hmm...let me think...*wondering*..well i Guess i shall start on the sunday pa..yeah?gd idea?hAHhaa..yeah!
well..let me start off...*lets hit it!!!*...


HOrrible n painful day
well..shit man...my sunburnt was reacting on my face
as if there was a million needles poking my face!!*pain*..well
but i still haf to bare the pain..yeah..not only tt..i haf this surround
headache tt made my whole day upside dwn..yeah..tt's how painful it is
well..aft church went to heartland to haf beef noodles..well guess how long we waited..1 sOIld HOur man!!..Hahaa..well but it was all worth it..cos the beef noodles
there is simply the best!!!..hahahaa*sMIle*..well aft eating..my dad n bro
proceeded on for a meeting n we both girl(my mum n me) went round heartland to
find clothes..Hahaha..yeah..aft sum boring rounds, we decided to move on to sengkang..yeah..well..we went to metro..well that's where i bought my 2 blouse
from..well..they are both strips one..yeah..one long sleeve n one 3/4 one..yeah..the
long sleeve One is in bLue..n has a mixture of cream ,yellow n white..yeah..my
mummy picked tt for me..hahaha..well yeah..n another one is a white base n black n grey strips..yeah..!!!nice nice..well..i haf yet to get a strip black pants..yeah..so tt it can match my blouse..yeah!!!well..my dressing darn formal hOR..haha..but me like..hahaha..well..hMm..then yeah...aft shopping..met up wif my dad
then had dinner..then went for more shopping,saw mrs veronica kHoo..yeah..well
guess wat...she just had another baby girl tt is 1mth old now..yeah..n her oldest girl
is turning 3 this jan..yeah!coOL man!..hahaha*smIle*..well..off we headed hM...
yuP!!..tt's all about my sundaY!..yeah!!*sMIle*


"skin disese"day
oh GoSH!!!...oH man..you noe wat?my face the skIn is pEeling
off..OH man!!..n i didn't noe how to go to school..cos it was really horrible..it started peeling from my nose..n now it has a shape like a butterfly on mY NosE...sHOOT man!!..hahah you noe wat i ended up doing..i resolved to putting my mother's brooch on my white patch!!*hAhahhahA*...well..yeah..at least tt helped alittle..but jess could still see my white patch..n she said it was very obvious.
nvrm la..hahaha...peel then peel..hahhaa...well..i meet jess at canteen n i was late again..Man..wat's wif my late habit nowadays..haiz..well yah..i was late for 30mins man..sorry ar jess..cos the bus came late..n i guess i missed my 45bus pa..yah..so..
went to give back my report bOOky..yeah..n then off we went to heartland for lunch..1st we went to the VCd shop..n then i ended up buying 2vcd..yeah..one is the IMperial cats n dogs n marrying the marfia..yeah..hahaha..then saw lydia n jocelyn..Hahaha..man i mISH them..heehee..yup!!..went to edo sushi ...bought n went to muMM..then off we went hm..yuP!..
In the bus..i saw grace heather n jess lee..yeah...yup!!..ahAHaha...then tok tok..then i left already..yuP!!..well..heather n i the frendship is still like on the rocks..haiz..i dunno how to save it..welli guess we will be ending up being further apart from each other..*sigh*..yah...came hm..then started watch VCDs..yuP!!..*sMIle*..both the VCds not bad laH..yeah!!..sO..yup!!..like tt..n tt's about my day...
OH man!!i'm deaD!!i habEn finisH my tuitIOn HMwk..shOOT man!!..i better go do it by tonite..tomOLo i still haf school to attend to..yah..well tt's all for now..
dear dear..i lOVe you!!..well you tc yah?*muacks muaCks*..lOOking forward to meeting you after ur OS..i mISH you aLOT!!!*hugs n KIssEs*

heehehee..well i went school late again..Hahaha as usual..i was late for 5 mins..well lucky didn't get a dressing dwn from Rajah..hahaha*phEw*..well..then in class sat wif Leona again...then celina asked me go swimming today..then i was like okay loRh..well leona was invited too...but in the end leona couldn't make it..yup!!..ask usual bcos of her mother..actually we planned to go leona's mum country club..yah..then ltr..the mother said tt the swimming pool at the country club was close for washing..wah piang..then at tt time i was like all dressed n ready to go..then..wah piang...nvrm..after a long 30 mins intensive discussion on where to go...celina n i proceeded on to the swimming complex at serangoon w/o leona..yup!!..then both of us sat by the pool n sun tan..hAHhaa..well celina gt red 1st n i was all jealOUs..Hahaha..cos i wanted to get red n tan..Hahaha..then yeah..sat there then we went to swim for awhile..i swam about 5 laps for the 1st round then i stop swimming to sun tan again..well i went under the sun for an hour..yeah..n the sun was blazing HOT..hahHAaa..well you can imagine right..Hahaha...me now is a red lObsTEr..well celina also gt red..well after the 1hour intensive sun tan..hAHaha..i went back swimming for another 10 laps non stop..yeah..well actually wanted to swiM more..hAHhaa..well crazy me..i went back to sun tan for another 10 mins..Hahaha..well..yuP!..n the result is pAin everywhere noW..my back n front is alL red..HAhahahaa..well yeah..then after bathe..then go macs haf lunch..tt would be Around 2+..yeah..Hahaha..then celina kept going back to the counter to ask curry sauce n tartar sauce..HahahhahHAaa..so fuNNy..yeah..then tok tok there for awhile..then we went on our separate ways..yeah...well..tonite..i'll be eating my chicken pie..n having a soy ya bean mILk..yeah..well coS i"m on a dIEt!!...well hhAHaha..hMm..then i went to sleep for awhile cos i was like wah dead tired..yeah..HAhaha..hmmm...then woke up called my darling for awhile..then yah..she is still sick..she still having sore throat...but thAnk God she recovered her vOice..yah...well i shall continue to pray for my darling..yeah...hMM..darling you might be sad now..but i wanna tell you tt you already did ur best for ur xams..so long as you did ur best...everything will be just fine...i noe you wan the best in all ur results but...you was sick..n it was hard to concentrate...dear dun pressurize urself too much k pls?baby..no matter wat happens..i wanna tell you tt i'm here for you always n forever..n i loVe you!!!+muacks muacks+......

GOsh..i really mish my darling..haiz..my dear sick again..now dear kanna sore throat n she lost her Voice...+sigh siGH+..dear ar dear...haiz...+lao po sayang lao gong...+..
i'm feeling so helpless...my darling sick n i cannot like go her house take care of her..+Sigh sigh+...+feeling useless+..my darling suffering n i cannot share her sufferings...haiz...+sighing away+..how i wish i gt it..then dun need to let my darling suffer le..she having xaMS neh n sick still haf to attend school just to take Os..haiz..then darling woRried tt she will not get gd grades..haiz...dear is not recoving..instead she gt more sick..haiz...baby baby..+sigh sigh+...y like tt?haiz..dear how i wish i can be beside you to nurse you back to health..tuck you in bed..make you feel comfotable..then can haf a peaceful sleep instead of feeling uneasy..+sayang sayang+..haiz...dear ar dear...haiZ...+deep sigh+...haiz...+get dwn on my kness n pray+

dear Heavenly FAther..2nite may you grant dear a gd nite rest..may ur healing hands be upon her LOrd as she rest thru the night..Let not anything to wake her up Lord as she gets her rest..and for Tomolo's paper..may you grant her wisdom n Let her do well..Lord Pls grant her ur mercy n Grace tt she will make it thru this O levels tt she had studied hard Lord..
Heavenly FAther i claim by faith tt by tomolo dear will recover LORd bcos i noe you heal..MAy you cover her with the Blood of Jesus christ..in Jesus name i pray
AMEN

dear sorry for being selfish..just bcos i wan you come out then dear dear pei me..then hai dear gt no time to study n hai dear study late late at night..haiz..sorry baby...i nxt time will not be wilful already..sorry..haiz...how i wiSh i can hug my darling to sleep so tt dear can feel all secure..n when at night she unwell..i can be there to nurse her..haiz...*sigh sigh*...haiZ...

dear...pls get well...+sigh sigh+....

poor baby..fell sick the day be4 our 5th anniversary

well my darling felt sick for about alomst 2 days..she had a fever..her fever was running high n kept increasing in the afternoon after her literature paper..despite her fever..dear still went to school for her lit paper..yup..+sigh sigh+..well..poor darling..then darling at night went to see doc wif her mUmmy..yup!!..well for me..i went shopPing for darling's present..Hahah..well of coURse i'm not alLowed to say..Hahhaa..its sUmting smalL but hope my dear will like it..yup!!..hMM...well..after came back from school i went to do dear's present..then ltr went take away macs for my dinner..then watch tv...then bathe..then go do my daily reading of 40days of purpose n then do my quiet time n off lights at about nearing 1am in the morning..yup!!..

let's continue about today..hMM...
i wOKe up at about nearing 7..cos i was all excited yup!!..then i gt changed into my school Uniform..wHIle changing..i turned on my hp..yup!!..then saw darling's smS..well she said tt she will not be able to make it..cos her mother took a day off to take care of dear...+sigh sigh+..yah..nvrm darling..gt ur mother take care of you..she better ma..Hahaha..well as long as you get well can le..whu take care of you also nvrm..yeah?thaNK you for even saying tt you wanna go out wif me despite you rUNner a high fever....then yah..after maths n chem lessons..i went to central to get my lunch..i had a cup of soya bean milk n a chicken pie...yup!!...doze off while watching kids central's cartoon..yup..then my hp rang..n found out it was my darling..i woke up n toked to her thru my house phone..yeah..tok for awhile..then darling sounded tired..so i asked her to go rest..yup!!..dear you must take care yah?+muacks muacks+...dear..must get well soOn k?...yeah..

yUP..after tt i proceeded on to doing my reading..yup..then i felt really bored..so i took my h/w to do..Hahaha..1st time right..HAhaha..well..Hmm...yah..i guessed i haf changed again..ahahaha..well..hmm..tt's about my day..well tonight i gt tuition..sIGh siGh..wat the hell man..hAIz..Sian loRh..but i gt to wORk hard on my eNg..if not..hAHhahaa...tt's the eND OF ME..well...i gt to woRk hard hard..Yeah....+sigh siGh+...darling you quick quick okay ya?me wan see you healthy..yah?must take care when i'm not wif you ya?loVe you darLing+muacks muackS+...

well..today sumthing weird had happened..which is tt today there is no school n i only found out when i reach school...*hAHahHAHa*..i found it so funNY..HAHhahaa...well..not pissed but funny..you noe y?cos now i'm training myself not to get pissed off easily..YUP!..*training under process*..WahAHhaa..well..*yeah*..hMM...watever about it man..hahAHaa showing attitude again..well sorry yesterday didn't blog cos i was toking to my darling..yup!..she had maths paper1 n physics paper2 yesterday..well poor darling...today she still gt english paper..haiz..+sayang sayang+..welL..dear you gt to jia you yah baby?*sMIle*...hAHhaa..can't wait for thrusday man!!!!!hAHhaa..cos going outa wif my darling..but sad to say at night at 7pm i gt tuition!!!!!!!!haiz..wat the hell loRH..then is like cannot stay out longer...*arghH*...then cannot spend more time wif my honey darling...HAhahhaAa..ain't i mushy?hAHahhahAHa...*sHys*..hAhahhaa...sorry ar..i'm abit the screw loose..HAhaha crappy old me!..man my links are so boRing..i shall go find interestings one to put there..yeah?let you pple enjoy!!..yeah!!aiYa...today i gt tuition..haiz..then yesterday nite abt to sleep..wah lao..gt this loud BAng sOUnd..awoken me up..n caused me to lose sleep!!then i gt to try to sleep again..wah piang..i was already quite tired nehz..let me find out whu tt bloody farker...tt PErsON is deaD!!.....*evil laugh*..HAhahaha..well..now i dunno wat to do..*sian*...wat the hell man!!..haiz..i truely mish my darling so much until it's uncountable loRH!..AhahahAHa...dear dear where are you?hAHahahAHa...well okay..i shall sign off now..maybe later in the day..ill come blogging again..well as you noe..wif MOre coMplaiNs..wahHAHAHhahaAhahaha....*smIle*..hAHahhaa...

jIA you darling!!dun gib up!!!+muacks muacks+

hMM..well today went to church..yup!..then in church gt this new girl..HAhaa..she darn cute i must say..her hairstyle..is like Wow..HAhaha...*cutey*..well..hMM..i saw her be4 last yr..cos i went for carolling n her mother invited us to her house to do christmas carolling..yUP!..*ahahah*..tt's how i gt to noe her..yuP!..i still remember..HAhaha..well yup! she came..then she kept smilling thru the whole service..yuP!..HAhaha..tt's wat my jie jie said..well believe or not..i nv toked to her..hAHhaa..well i guess as wks go by..hope we can make frends..yah?hAHahaha...HMm..so..then today our church gt quite alot of new pple..well +clap clap+..HAhaha..meaning our church is growINg..hAHaha..then today is the 1st day of the 40days of purpose..yuP!..well +wat am i here on earth for?+..haf you ever wonder or even ponder on tt questions be4?well if you haf...i wanna warmthly invite you to my cellgrp..yup!..well you will be given a boOk..n you only haf to read one chapter a day..AHhaa...this is my short phrase..to keep the devil away..HAhahaah..a chapter a day..keeps the devil away..HAhhaa..well yuP!..then after service..we had our worship clinic..yup!..this worship clinic is to practice new songs or you noe..do new stuff..yup!..hAHhaa..then we had pizza n coke..yUP!..well..tt's our lunch..then practice practice..sian..but the song was darn nice neh...!!!coOL!..well although it was difficult..but it's okay la ya?yUP!..then carlise sent me hm..yuP!..then i came hm on computer..then kanna scolded bu my mother..+pissed off+..Hahhaa..
well i should be losing weight..hMM..tonight i shall eat lesser nehx..yup!...+sigh sigh+..i'm getting fatter!!!!!!aRghhHHh...+screaming away+..oHOH..my dear tomolo gt Os le..well dear you must jia you yaH?dun nervous yeah?just relax n do watever k baby?all the best for tOMolo+muacks muacks+....

well..today i'm feeling extremtly darn darn happY!!!..YAhOOO...HAhahahAa..*smILe*..hAhaha..well God NOes y also..well hMM..today woke up quite early..cos cannot sleep le..hAhhaa..yesterday was really tired..yup!!..cos didn't haf enough sleep..then dear dear said my face very pale..yah..haiz..well tt was yesterday..i think today my face is back to normal.?hAhaha..duNno lah..well hMm..today morning read the newspaper for 1st time nehx..cos mdam dillion asked us to read the newspaper...yuP!!...so i did...me guaI hoR..HAhaha..well yuP!!..then after read newspaper..go muMm breadfast..yuP!..then learn the 2 new song..waH...darn difficult neh the coRds..wah haf to change here n there....BUTBUT..HAhaha i mastered it le!..FalALala..*sMIle*..hAhaha..well To God be the GloRY...HAhaha..sO..yup!!..well you noe my brother n i sang so LOud tt even my dad just said tt from dwnstairs 1st floor lift can hear neh..HAhahahAa...*smILe*..then gt one lady said tt she tot we on radio..HAhahaa..hAHahhaa..falalLAaa...hAHahhAa...so well yup!!..today dear i guess she must be darn bz n anxious wif her Os..haiz..dear dear..you jia you k?well i can see you on the thurs again..HhahHAa...my mUmmy allOwed me go..hAHhaaa..hMM..but me wanna go PRom also..+sigh sigh+..then can dance wiF dear dear..HAHAhahHaa...+giggles until fall dwn+...weLL..hAHahaa..well..i hope i also can attend the christmas chalet..yup!!..AHAHHAhaa...*smIle*..well..we will see how it goes ar..HAhaha...dear..Jia you..i lOVe you dear dear...foRever...