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it had come to the end of the week n tomolo i dun haf CCA nor i haf to go to school+yippY+..hahaha..shouting out loud..hahaha....n it means i won't haf to wake up early in the morning!...+singing...early in the morning six o clock+...i can haf my long sleep in rest...yeah..man i'm like having experience eyebags all over me..hahhaa..sigh sigh...well..i'm like so tired can...i tink i'll need to put cucumber on my eyes le...hahaha...well will tt work?i really dunno..my frend asked me to put teabags on my eyes..hahaha..but euodia said nv to trust her...hahaha..n i wanted to try..hahhaa...but coming to think of it..i won't haf any time to try it..arh..heck la..whu bothers..i just want my sleep..hahaha...i want my beauty sleep...+screaming our loud+..
well..today nth much happened..yah..had my maths tuition..then ya...called er zi chatted wif her for awhile..yeah..yah..now still on the phone..hahaha..well having this long conversation..yeah...okay i shan't be disturbed..hahaha..byebye...now i'll be getting lost!!

yoyoyo pple..well i'm like here again!!yoyoyo...wel..currently toking to didi..yeah..well..feeling really dwn nowadays n you noe wat?i'm having difficulty understanding pple..as in when pple tell me things..i will haf to like ask them several times..tt pissed myself off lorh..well if tt pissed me off..then the person repeating it again will get more pissed off...am i right?+hellO?+..hahaha..yah..i'm getting more blur n blur nowadays...another dory!hahhaa..gosh!..
hmm..my life is totally in a disater n it's in a big fatty mess!!i gt so many test until i myself cannot cope wif my sleep n studies..i just simply can't juggle..everyday returning home like 5+..n sumtimes coming to 6..everyday my enrichment course ends tt late..n by the end of the day..i'll be so dead tired tt i dun wanna see any books already...n whenever i face them..my stress will start overflowing into me..n it will just make me feel like i'm going to cry n break dwn..my whole entire system will just go havoc...i just feel tt i'm so stressed up till i dun haf space to breathe..how i wish sumday i could like go to the beach alone..sit at the waterbreak n cool myself dwn..didi said tt bcos i'm too stressed up therfore it causes me to not being able to understand wat pple are saying..as in not concentrating..i get so distracted by my thinking..+sigh+...well..is tt considered a nad sign?i dunno..just feel like running away from everything..from reality n go into a world of nv nv land..i dun wanna grow up..i still wanna enjoy my childhood days..
thinking y am i online n not studying?well finally i dun haf anymore test this wk..but i'll be having my geo chinese n social studies nxt wk..well i haf better get all prepared..so today..i'll be burning sum midnight oil again..hahaha..today i cancelled my english tuition..darn i was darn tired of studying..so decided to take a rest..later need to finish daniel h/w..yah..be4 he starts his nag n his sulky face!+shrugs+..hahhaa...yah..
gosh..wat day is it?they will be burning those sugar canes..+smelly+..man it sure will stink my hair..argh...washed it everyday..n like everytime kanna either smoke or wat..sure stink one lorh..then my hair dun smell all fragrant n sweet smelling..hahaha...heyhey..it's true..this girl here washes her hair everytime she steps into the bathroom to haf her bathe!..yah!!..then carlise was like saying..wah you dun spare a thought for your parents in saving up water..hahhaa..n therefore can pay less for the water bill..well apparently you pple haf forgotten wat's personal hygine..hahaha..yeah..really esp those pple wif long hair..when they start perspiring..their hair will also get wet..imagine those perspiration all over..+yucks..i can't imagine+..n if i dun wash it at least once..the nxt day..my hair will be really oily..n trust me..i dun like a tinge of tt feeling at all..okay..enough about hair issue..my hair is all fine n sweet smelling so long as they dun come burning those smelly stuff tt gibes me a hair time to breathe...mAn..i'm smelling it already!!+arghhh+...my face is getting all oily!!..eeee....
today..i had really a hard time opening up my eyes n concentrating in my lessons..then er zi happen to pass me a oxyvital spray..its a spray tt is actually like water..but inside the water..it contents alot more oxygen..yah..n i'm suppose to spray it into my eyes..yah..well i tell you..be4 i shot it into my eyes..my face was already lik 1metre away from the spray..hahaha..no kidding..it's alittle shocky..yah..oh well..the first time wasn't enough..i had to like do it 2 times..yah...well..finally it worked..hahhaa..i was all awake..thank God..yah!...
hmm..besides tt..it was raining throughout the whole day..man..it was torturing cold..well i shan't complain..but actually i do love this kinda weather..n i dun mind if it continues..hahaha..i'm alittle cockoo isn't it..well i love cold seasons more than hot...cos when the weather comes in hot..it makes a person very agitated..yah..really..tt feeling sucks..dun you think so..
well sumthing saddening just happened to me..my lit test today..n my maths..both i experiences brainblock due to the lastminute studying..haiz...now u understand i won't want to try tt every again?yah..well it's getting pretty late..i gtg le..hmm..enjoy my blog!love you pple!+muacks+

+sighs+..man i'm having one mood swing again..+deep sigh+..well i noe i should be happy at this moment of tym when money starts rolling into my pocket..but..nevertheless..i still experiences the moody swings from one end to another..just..haiz..i dunno la..
well today my journey started at 1+..yeah..my godma was alittle late..yeah..by the time we reached my grandma's house..it was around coming to 2 already..boy i was really hungry..at ard 12+ nearing 1..i charge at anything i see..(tt's how hungry i was)..then yah..at my grandma's house eat n eat n eat like a pig..hahaha..man i was sure one hungry pig i must say...after my lunch i was like still wanting to eat more..hahaha...but end up didn't la..hahaha..instead i went on snacking on the chinese new year goodies..hahaha..well actually i must admit tt i had been doing tt since be4 new year starts..i had been picking n nibbling on the goodies tt my mum bought..+evil laugh+...heehee...then i sat there on the chair n started toking to my er zi..yeah...tok tok tok..even walking out wif my cousin to pick her frends up..also tok..hahaha..man we sure do haf alot in common sia..hahha...anyway..after the chat..it was time to go..yeah..man my heels has to buckle n it was darn ma fun sia...every house i enter i haf to like take it out n then when go i will haf to buckle it up again..+pissed me off+..not only tt..my blisters are still like "new"n i haf to wear the heels tt originally gave me blisters...gosh..i must say..it was really painful..it was as gd as sumthing rough charfing against my raw skin..+OooooOOUuuuUUccccHhhhh+....well..but here i am..the strong one outlasting the pain n the rubbing..yeah!+i'm a surviour+..oh watever..wahahhaa..yeah..moving on to the nst house..okay okay..no more toking about visiting..i'm sure to bored you to death..lets tok about my godma's house..yeah..well i had my dinner there..well the food she cooked was simply declicious..hahaha..+yummy+..well i dun mind having it again...+heehee...hungry ghost+..hhahaha...yeah..at about 10..we decided to go hm n rest..yeah..took a cab then off we went str8 home..n here i am...

+darn full nehx+..wah piang..i just finished my dinner!wah..i gt to like force it dwn my throat nehx!!+die die+..i'm getting fat nehx!!+pinching my fats!!!+..wah shit nehx!die le die le!!...my CNY clothes can see all the fats nehx!!+Pinch pinch pinch+..die le lorh!!


Sigh sigh...well today dun haf chinese xtra lesson sia!+hahhaa+...then me notti notti go out..hahahaha...+smilex n evil laugh+..wahahhaa...then today didi just told me tt her mother rabit gave birth..hahaha..n she asked me if i want it..then i said i cant take it..but me can name one rabit!!hahaha...+smilex+..wahahhaa..so wat should i name tt rabit?+smile cutely+..heeheee...well..i haben think about it...+thinking hard hard+....well..okay i shall get going now...+hahaha+

yox yox yox watz up pple!!its raining!!wahahhaa..finally the sky decided to like rain!wahahha..yeah..well..we'll come to tt in the ltr part of my blog..so..well today man i must say it was a darn tiring day..cos yesterday or should i say i only slept at 4 in the morning..yah..all bcos of my art n guess wat happened in the end..my teacher nv checked or mark at all..wah piang..y does it always haf to happen on me?+blaghs+..argh!!nvrm..okay..hmmm back on track...


after school went out wif er zi..hhhaha..then so funny can..cos raining so decided to go j8 bi bi rain..but then the rain nv stop wor...then slack around..went to christofori to play alittle piano let er zi hear..hahaha..she say she was melting..wahahaha...+sum1 melts when i play..cool!!+..wahahaha...jk jk..my brother plays much better than me..i haf much to learn n more more rm for improvement..well..yeah..after tt..waited for her didi to come..yah..tt was around 4+ le..n i had to be hm at like around 2+..well it was raining..n i couldn't walk in the rain..cos i'll get drench..yah..so thot if i could go j8 haf my lunch then wait for awhile till the rain gets smaller or stop then return hm..but the rain didn't apparently..sigh..well so..i still had to walk hm under the heavy rain..n i was all wet n soaked like a duck!..+sighsigh+..yeah..nvrm..well i still manage to get hm..yah..even though i was all wet..yah..man i must say it was really quite cold..cos the rain beats upon ur skin n the cold breeze blow against ur flesh..man..it can sent shiver dwn ur spine man..it's cold..it was so cold tt my hands started turning pale..when i gt hm..i headed str8 for the toilet n had a long n warm bathe hoping i won't catch a chill due to the cold wind..yah..well..gd enough i didn't catch it..or else will sure be very troublesome..then my mother will scold me again..yeah..so best when sick..dun tell her..hide it lorh..yah...or else sure kanna one..nvrm...NEXT!..yeah..had my dinner..
my dinner was alittle special..i had wan tan mee from my brother's frend parent's stall..yeah!!nice nice wor!!..had alittle..then picked on the steam fish n tt was my dinner..yah...dun wanna eat so much..cos cNY coming nehz..wanna look all nice!!hahhaa...+vainpot right?+..can't be help..as i grow older..it happans!..wahhaa..so..yah..at night i haf tuition..so after dinner..my mother asked me go haf alittle nap..so tt when tuition i won't feel tt blur n tired..yah..but well..the nap didn't really work out..hahaha..i was still as blur n slow was ever..hahhaa..then in class today..whenever i had a chance..you can see my eyes closin man!!..i was tt tired..on the way back hm in the bus..my eyes was closed too..hahhaa...i'm turning into a panda soon!...+gosh+..well..okay okay..no more thing...
My tuition teacher..he so poor thing sia..after the food poisoning incident..(tts y he couldnt make it on the sun)..he lost so much weight sia!!..i'm jealous..i tink i should get food poisoning also!!wahahaa..then can lose more weight!!yeah!!then i dun need to haf my diet of eating little..hahhaa..but..well training up to eat little is gd you see..so tt in future ur diet can be controlled..okay..so much for the diet n my day..it's time for me to go checky my mails n to head back to my work...i haf yet to finish my mathS!yeah!!everyone!!tc n God bless...+muacks...sending flying kisses to everyone whu reads my blog+...yeah!

Sigh..well tml i'll haf to be back in school again..n guess wat..tml my day will be suppPPEeeRrr LONG!..man man man!..wat else can i do but complain right?oh watever!


hmm..let me start my report..today i bring you 3 gd news!...first in church today huimin said tt my face is alittle long..hahaha..well means tt i lost weight!!finally sum1 realised tt..i thot my diet didn't work out!!well..it did..i shall continue!!+wahahha...jumping over the moony!!!+..whhahaa..2nd..today NO TUITION!!..wahaha..suppose to haf my maths tuition..but at the very last hour..my tuition teacher called n said tt he had a very bad stomachache thus unable to turn up!!wahahaha...am i mean?nah..i'm not wor..me at least asked him to take care!!hahaha..see..gt this kinda student gd right?wahahhaa..+self praise international disgrace+..hahaha...well..3rd gd news... i bought catus!!wahahaha...i noe it sounds stupid!!but dun make fun of me alright??this is the first time i'm so willing to take care of a plant!!hahaha...well anyway...i'm just overjoyed by everything today!!but sad to say tt i gt to finish my art by tonight..i tink i tonight dun need to sleep le..hahaha..but everytime when i said i dun need to sleep..i will sumhow or rather ending up sleeping..well yah..tt's just me!the PIG..well..i do really need sleep you noe..if not i'll be send to china for pete sakE!!..i'm having heavy eyebags!!!hahahaa..tt's wat my frend saiD!!wahahhaa..nvrm...


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so...today went to serangoon garden..hahaa...then went to mumm..well i tink i ate too much le n my stomach is like darn eh..how should i say?hmm...bloated?yah!!i ate too much le!!die die die!!few more days will be chinese new yr le!!hahaha..can't wait to collect my hong baos!!hahahaa...oh..today after lunch we headed to heartland then after tt i said i wanted to see my shoes..well cos it was time to replace my sport shoes..yah..then i headed to bata..then i saw this cute little pair of shoes..it's from maria claire..n the shoes look like ballet one..so sweet n cute lorh!..i almost wanted to get it can!!..it's like so comfortable n nice!!+sigh sigh+...bcos of my mum's unwillingness in giving me a positive remarks n so is my brother's i decided i 'm not getting it...yah..nowadays my mother is always wif my brother..they are like always so sticky!!wat's wrong!!..not only tt can!!..i find tt my mother is very biased..for example..today..i was doing my work..then i finished earlier..then my brother was on the computer to do his blog..then my mother nv nag n scold him..if i was the one tt is using the computer..she will nag n shout like no1's business..then still can ask my brother how long more then can eat dinner!!wah piang..so nice to my brother then treat me like shit!!wat is wrong man!!did i do anything wrong to recieve this kinda treatment?i dunno lorh..another matter..on sat (yesterday)..i had a reunion dinner at my godma's place..then bcos i had to finish up my lit..then i ended up the last one to haf my bathe..well..i'm already rushing thru..my mother still complain..say wat we will be late..nvrm..then another thing..on tt day when we went over to sarah's house to haf dinner..my brother was doing sum adition stuff..n i came hm like at 7..then nvrm..went to haf my bathe..n when i came out my brother was still doing it..nvrm..she nv complain at all lorh..the whole family has to wait for tt man can!!!wah piang..okay i be understanding it had to be handed in tomolo..fine..then wat about my h/w?i also haf to hand in on monday wat..n moreover knowing tt on sun my day will be pack wif stuff thus i tried my best to finish it..my mother nv even praise me tt i was hardworking instead she complain tt they will be late!!..wat rubbish?i dun see any logic behind all these things!!...i really can't!!if sum1 can understand it pls kindly explain to me?nowadays i get easily frustrated n agitated..i dunno wat's causing me all these...argh!!!


i'm tired of life..really tired..when will all my days of confusion end?when will i then be able to fit properly in society?when will i then be able to stand at the same level as my brother..recieving proper attention from my mum?i tired to be nice..tired to tok to her..but simply she just gt nth to tok to me about?haf we lost those mother n daughter's tok?my mother just went into my brother's rm to adjust his fan..when did my mother ever do tt to me?never!...haiz..i just i'm still consider an outcast..you noe last time i used to think i'm a ophan tt no1 wants?sumtimes i gt a feeling tt i'm a burden to my family..no1 is caring for me..no1 is giving me attention n love tt i need..is not i dun like my family..is the lack of love i experiences thus i only could turn to frends..to care for them n to like be close to them..do things together n etc..but i can nv do tt wif my family..i tink they dun even understand wat i'm thinking n dun even noe my character n wat i had become..i tink my mother had stopped loving me already..


sumtimes in the night i feel sad..no1 is there for me..i would cry to my soft toy..tok to them n play wif myself..i may sounds like a psycho..but trust me..tt's one form of entertainment to myself..only "they" noe tt i cry at night..no1 shares joy or pain wif me..no1 is there for me...i may seem happy infront of you..but nv will you noe i haf many cuts in my heart...tt's my life..pple might insult me behind my back..when i gt to noe about it..i do nth but to tell myself..nvrm..n swollow it dwn..when i get sacarsim from my family..i do nth but to laugh it off or to walk away showing them tt i'm not happy about it..but..no1 does anything..they dun even apologise...i''m still confuse if they still really love me..do i matter alot to them?wat if i die one day..will they ever shed a tear for me?will they remember wat i did for them..or will they only remember me as a lazy girl..as a black sheep of them family..will my frends remember me as for wat i am..or will they only remember me when they need my care?


i'm so confuse!!

today went studying...yah...tt's all i'm going to say..i'm feeling weird in stomach...gt butterflies...

another new day of a new beginning..wat the hell am i toking about...+sigh sigh+..me now toking to my er zi..just now met up wif her then gib her letter..yah..well me put the lavender oil on the letter...haha..den er zi cannot smell cos her shampoo is lavender also!!+wahahhaa+..cute girl sia!!+Muacks+...yah..then went to get my things..well..i bought my ink refilled n my pink pen!!hhahaha..i needed my pink pen cos i had been writing alot in my lit...hahaha..well tt's me sia!!the lIterature..hahaha...well write n write n write..hahaha..


hahaha...nvrm...hmm..well nth really happened today..just tt i'm just like coped up wif my work sia..well but i was okay la..still can manage pa...yah...well..okay i think i better not tok anymore..no mood le..yah...


my er zi sick sick..then scare me..er zi you better take care...yah..love ya!+muacks+...
gtg..toodles!

I hate the whOle bloody world!..wat's wrong wif finding out the truth?you was the one whu lied!!i possesive so wat?at least i noe tt i cared n protected my stead wat!!...watever loRH!say wat you want lorh!..i get so pissed off after finding out can!..you noe how i had to take it..it was bloody hard can!i gt to manage everything myself..when you needed me i was there..when i needed you..you wasn't there!!..Joe ur lies has alot of loop holes la..so dun bother try lying ever again okay?wan to lie..go take lessons ya?
i'm not getting back at you..but one day when ur future stead does the same to you..see how you feel n how you take it k?only then you will understand wat i went thru la okay?ur tt frend of urs was kind enough to tell me..n to wake me up from my dream tt all along you was lying to me..still can qing kou tell me your mother found out n wat nv keep my letters properly!!i duno wat will happen to me if she doesn't tell me tt you lied...now you admit you avoiding me abit the too late right?...you cannot be str8 ma?cannot tell me right into my face ma?y must be such a coward?pls lorh!..wat kinda person n wat kinda character you haf?you better wake up sia!...


watever it is..it's the past n will forever remain as a past!..i dun wanna reck it up again..but hope you change!...if you dun wanna listen n learn..then i'll haf nth to say..all you gave me was sacastic remarks..when i'm sick you dun even ask me how i was..you say dying already?wah piang..when you broke off wif me..n when you're sick i still cared for you sia!!n wat i get?dun say whu you can trust n whu you cannot trust la alright?all one whole bloody bunch of rubbish okay?you can't even be trusted wif wat you say!!still say in the first place tt you told me dun promise wat you can't keep!!..whu is doing it now?you see how contradicting you can get?all bullshit!!..you can be angry wif me for all i care..i just wan you to noe how it hurts n kills to noe the truth!!...


you're not stupid..but you're stupid enough to lie to me..you noe sumhow or rather i'll find out one..n trying to lie to me it's quite hard..you should noe tt..sumhow or rather i will suspect one..watever lorh!!you get pissed for one day!!..i gt pissed of coming to 2 months le!!...n you're one darn lucky kid tt i didn't blow at you!!..i was just controlling!!...you're so lucky!!...watever la ya!...continue wif ur life!!..n i'll continue wif mine!!.....+attitude+...

I hate to come hm..i find tt my hm is no more a hm for me..everyday nothing just work..tv n sleep..communication all broken dwn..i dun haf my own free will of coming hm when i want..(i noe i may sound like if my mum gave me tt freedom..ill be like coming hm 12 midnight)..but thinking..i will haf school the nxt day..n besides i haf upcoming tests..i noe when i want to study n when i wanna play..i noe sumtimes i may get outa hand..but i still noe my limits n will feel guilty if i done wrong..i will..i still haf a heart you noe?i also remembered one time when my mother's toe was bleeding..i helped her paste her plaster cos she didn't do it well..so i decided to try..well then my mother said..i didn't noe you're like compassionate?then i said wat you wan me to be?cold blooded?i'm not lorh!...then she diam diam..wah piang..she thinks i'm cold blooded can?+arghh+..is just tt no one care for me in this family..for a really long time le..i find tt i'm not accepted..everywhere i go..only when i'm needed then pple call me..when they dun wan me..they will just dump me at one corner..no matter how hard i try to call..they just refuse to listen..i guess i'll be numb to this kinda things le pa..the fact tt i'm unwanted..if i'm tt..then so be it pa...i cannot change my fade n how pple thinks about me...


i just reached hm..today went out wif er zi again..n heather didi wif her stead...yah..then took a train to doby ghout..then headed dwn to orchard..yah..well..then ate there...n like slack there for awhile..yah..then come hm le..well..everyday stay at hm..i feel so crop up n like wat lorh..dunno la..i sumtimes feel like..haiz..can't describe..i feel like my family dun like me at all..i'm like a cast out to then n so insignificant to them..not impt at all..


my daddy is so obsess wif tt small girl...n my mum is like so obsess wif my brother...just bcos my brother is doing better than me..then she like him more..if she wants tt to happen then y gib birth to me?..i feel..argh!!..i'm just unwanted la..no one loves me..no one cares..when my brother gets sick..my mother took care of him..bought for him cough syrup..then ask him go take this go take tt..when i sick?my mother dun care a nut about me lorh..buy cough syrup n tt's it...i was like sick the whole holiday can?even when school reopen also sick..still attend school..moreover..i told her tt my chest felt choked...n she didn't say anything!!..wah..if it gt worse then maybe it might just suffocate me to death le lorh!n i dun even think she bothers..she only cares about is my brother..y?cos my brother can bring the family name up!..n wat can i do?pull it dwn...!!..i'm the one n only black sheep in the family!!..i'm the jinx n i'm the watever!yah!..watever bad thing you wan to say about me..just go ahead...yah?i will not retaliate or watever la ya?my mother also said she wanna go see principal!!...pls lorh!spare me those trouble can!..hate the bloody principal!..+pissed off n turned off+..


i'm so sick n tired of putting up wif all my mother things le lorh!..sumtimes i feel like exploding infront of her..my mother nv explode infront of my brother..she will only nag nag..then she will nv say about all my brother's past..when it comes to my turn..she will say..n she will start chanting all my history ouT!..+blaghs+..wat the hell!...i dunno wat my mother thinks la..she makes me do all the chores n my brother doesn't haf to!..wat in the world is tt!!it's so totally unfair!..when the whole family goes out..i'll always be the last one out..no1 will come tok to me..even if i tok to them..no1 will answer me..the attention will all go to my brother..moreover..when my brother's mood no gd..they dun dare say anything..they won't nag n watever..when i bad mood..show black face..they will say..y when i bring you out you so unhappy..then everytime when family outing you always like tt...i was like!!watever n nvrm lorH!say watever you want..i just wanna be left alone..even if i'm not alone..as in i'm in the crowd..i'll still be the odd one n be left alone..i'm probably just a loner la ya?tt no1 wants to care about!..wat they wanna do to me..i wont do anything..they wanna stab me kill me..all up to them pa...i'll just sit there n do wat i want...


my mother everytime tell me..you better not study already le la...you always so lazy dun wan to do work..everytime i must push!!she where gt push lorh!wat rubbish!..argh!!..watever la ya!..yaya..then she can take the money n probably sent my brother to australia to study right?to fufill his wish right?ya la ya la..take him as ur precious son n just leave me alone right?
n you noe wat my mother say..i won't be surprise if one day you smoke..i was like wah piang...+arghhhh+....watever la ya!!..no1 cares about me...cut drink all..also nvrm la..right?
+walks away+


i hate my life..no1 cares..no1 love me..no1 no1 no1

alright!!back to blogging..everyone sit dwn!!..yesh yesh..take a cup of coffee of tea or me?coffee or tea..dinner or me?wahaha..wat in the rubbish world am i toking about man!no..just kidding..hahaha...relax n enjoy wat i'm about to share!!


here we go..


well..today school day was really long n i couldn't take it..really!..it's like simply just too long to be true..after school we had an entra chinese lesson..n our lao shi asked us to do compre..i tell you..i was so thankful n relieved to hear it wasn't a compo tt we had to write..compo to me is like a killer!..a big killer!!+faints+..okay..enough of dramatic stuff..hahaha..back..well..yesterday i struggled to finish up my art...n the gd news was i went to cancel my tution..hahaha..so no tuition on tt day...went out wif my er zi..slack at heartland then ended up reaching hm at about 7..n i was like die sure kanna from mummy one sia..but thank God..i didn't..hahaha...bombarded my mum wif alot of questions..so tt she has no chance to interrogate me..hahaha...wat a mean daughter right?hahaha..tt's me la..the rebellious one!+wahahhaha+..today i tink my mother gt so fed up wif me until she said..i dun care whu you're toking to n i dun wish to find out anymore..gosh...did i do sumthing really wrong for her to say tt?i tink she thinks i'm outa hand..am i?am i?sum1 tell me n enlighten me..i really dunno wat to do wif my life already..tomolo i'll be having this irritating EIa thingy!n i'll be having an english test!..i hope i can make it..it's like so difficult can!wah..really nehx..tt lum sure mark darn strict one..well..i rather learn my mistakes now than later n fail badly for my Os..well...yah..i will n must try my best for my test tml!..yeah!


well..moving on..


rested awhile n then had my bath..then watch alittle tv programmes..n headed back to my rm to do work...well i was msging my er zi while doing my art..n believe me..while waiting for her sms..i can really sleep..cos i was on my bed n i was so darn sleepy..toking about it..i'm really kinda tired now..i shall hurry wrapped it up n probably study alitte n go tido..yeah..yeah as i was saying..i was doing my most famous thing which is half sleeping n half doing my h/w..hahaha..yeah..then occasionally gt awoken up by her msg..after tt..when i was sleeping half-way..she called me..entertained her for awhile until my hp batt went flat on me..hahaha...my this month bill sure come out to 50 odd one lorh...n mummy's sure scolding me already..well..i'm all prepared..+screams:..Sum1 get me an ear piece pls?+..hahaha..yeah..see how prepared i am?oh watever..+shrugs+...


+yawns+..i'm getting tired..hmm...i wonder wat my er zi is doing now?probably sleeping pa..or is she tinking about me?..wahahhaa..me gt such a fu qi to haf this faithful er zi man!hahahaa...ta zhen you wo de xin translate to eng..she gt my heart..wahahaha...funny though..but...this is the result when you haf a direct translation..


director shouts: NEXT!!


hahaha..yesh boss yesh boss...toking about today...well..nth much happened only tt my eyes kept wanting to close n i had to force it to open...it's really a bad experience to haf actually by try paying attention when you're really sleepy..bcos ur eye lids will just refuse to open..it's really true!...well..but sumhow or another i managed to get it open n to listen...(half in half out)..hahaha..heehee...
oh..i gt a gd news..when i was walking to heartland..i saw fenni!!man!..i sure missed her!!she become so chio can!!wear contact lens le..n slim dwn so oOooo mUch!!+wee wee+..hahaha...man..i'm so jealous!!+shrugs+..yeah..i noe i'm fat..but hey i'm desperatly trying means n ways just to lose weight can!!


you noe wat comes into my mind now?i was thinking by maybe listening to my mother more often n not by going against her..i'll be like hmm..can gain more freedom?i dunnoe..but i'm willing to try..i'll study hard..hey anyway by the way..i'm not studying hard enough..i'm still playing away!..wat the hell!!!okay..i better get going le!!tomolo i'll be meeting my er zi!!+trying to pinch her little cheeks+..wahahhaa..heehee..


oh i forgotten..hey heather didi..thanks alot again for being my middle person..
ThaNKs alot

back back..hahaa...well alittle more tann tt's it..hahaha..well yesterday i went to east coast..yeah..guess wat..i also pulled my er zi along..whahaha..n it was like the very very last minute when carlise was about to pick me up tt time..yeah..man i must say er zi can really run fast sia..she run like no1's business sia..+amazed+..well we met her at central 7 eleven..then carlise picked us up..we had a little stop over at jarvis's house bcos he just returned from npcc training..yeah..he gt changed n had a bathe..n off we headed to east coast...


after the long n torturous ride..(just recently i developed car sickness)..gosh..it was really bad sia..i can feel like vomitting man...everyone tt is reading my blog n happen to be eating..i wanna apologise..sorry sorry sia..heehee...finally gt dwn the car..then my er zi go draw money from ATM..yeah...hahaha..then desiree, er zi n me headed to macs..i decided to haf a little stroll since i'm not eating..well i asked if er zi wanna come along..n then she agreed..well..so off we went..we sat on the bench..had a little chat..n yeah..later met up the the rest n all of us cycled..yeah..man..its been long tt i cycled..yeah...really long really long..i almost lost my balance..hahaha..but i didn't....hahahaha..thank God..or else i'll malu-ate myself only..hahahaa....


well after cycling..we took a rest at one of the unknown jetty..we didn't cycle for a long time..only a short period of 1 hour..but i must say tt was more than enough..or else everyone's butt will ache for sure..hahaha..+cheeky laugh+..hahaha....


after the rest...we headed to the lagoon for a drink while carlise, desiree ,samual, n nick went to cycle round the area..yeah...each of us enjoyed our drink n felt refreshed after all those sweaty cycling..then it was time for us to head back to the bicycle station...on the way back..huimin gt hit by sum1 tt turned w/o noticing huimin was on her bic..n she just turned n ram on huimin..poor little girl..she scrap her knee..n the wound was quite bad...yeah..i helped her clean up her wound...clean off the blood..
then put plaster for her..yah..hopes she get better...+sayang sayang...+..poor girl...
then today she came to church wearing a long pants..then the pants kanna the pass..wah..so much can..then she had to change the plaster..then yah..me trying to become a future nurse..so i also helped wif the changing of plaster..yeah...


back back...then continued journey to bicycle station..gt my bag outa locker..
then..jie just nice arrived..cos she went to pick auntie mary up n collect the food tt my mummy cooked..after tt we headed to the other side of the beach to haf our picnic..we laid out everything..then my er zi n i went to sit on the waterbreak..actually wanted to see sunset together one..but then the clouds all covered le..then cannot see liao..+sob sob+...sunset is really beautiful..if any1 get to admire it...must tell me..cos i also wanna admire it..hahaha..+crazy me+..yeah..then later..carlise n jie come join us..tok tok..then suddenly, my er zi stretched her arm..then her sleeves reviewed abit of her tattoo..n found out by my jie's sharp eyes...n my er zi looked n me n said..die die die..hahaha...cute little girl...everyone examine her tattoo n gt so fascinated wif it..wahahhaa...+wahahha..giggles+..well after tt...everyone tok tok tok..then carlise went off first to pei auntie mary..cos she was all alone..then left jie erzi n me....then jie was like keep asking the both of us.."times up le hor..you all hungry anot ar?"...then we will like say no...it's not dinner time yet..hahaha..then she frown..then not long later..my jie asked again.."can we eat?it's getting dark"...then the both of us answered..no where gt...it's not dark wat...then my jie asked again.."when can we haf our dinner?"..hahahhaa...then i answered until all of them finish playing frisbee lorh..hahaha...my jie frown again..wahahhaa..she is such a cute little girl...oh oh oh..recently she gt a little hamster called suki-chan..hahaha..she is one darn cute hamster!!...suki is only one month +..n her parents are from japan..wahahhaa..but suki is a local breed..so she is quite special i must say....one little cute thing..hahaha...see if i can put the pic n show off my jie the hammmster!!hahaha....waity ar..hmmm...while you pple wait..i shall tell you more about the outing..
here you go..i present little suki chan
sorry to disappoint everyone..but apparently the stupid villagephoto dun work..i must go get another webbie le..this villagephoto thing is driving me nuts!!really nuts!!..argh..i shall show you sum other days okay..sorry to disappoint everyone!


well..yeah..continue..enough enough of admiration on tt little hamster..back back back to the pt..hahaa..well...finally it was dinner time..yeah..then after dinner tok tok for awhile..all of us headed hm..yeah..boy i was really tired..after i bathe..i stra8 away..lie on my bed n zzzz i went to la la land le..then er zi called me..tok to her for awhile n back to la la land..hahaha


this morning..at abt 6+..i gt awoken by my tummy again wor...+silly tummy+..call me wake up wor..hahaha...then go toilet..then yah cannot sleep le...went to brush my teeth..then yah..had breadfast..then went to bathe..yeah..then reached church..practiced alot..to get wat my brother wants..yeah..well it was sure hard work n sure stressing to be his pianist man...+stressed up+...then jie tell me abit stress gd..yah..i noe..so tt i can improve..yeah...hahaha..well not long..er zi came..hahaha..glad to see her sia....well..yeah..she came to support me wor..hahaha..wat a nice er zi i haf hor?+smile smile+..wahahhaa....anyway..we sat dwn n haf a little chat..then yah...chat chat until service is going to start..yarh...had service..during sermon i sat dwn wif her..yeah..then after church she disappeared..cos she had to rush dwn to orchard youth park to support her didi..n actually she was made to sing..n made her memorised the lyrics...n end up she called me n told me she didn't haf to sing anymore..hahaha..she was so relieved to hear tt..hahaha...


then when she wanted to walk outa the church herself...but everyone insist tt sum1 fetch her to the mrt station..well..yeah..wendy went to fetch her la..yah..hahaha...


well..went to J8 to eat ramen..yah..well i ordered tom yam one..well it was nice..but i only ate 1/2 of it..i couldnt eat anymore..n i really hate to stuff food dwn my throat sia..really..it makes me wanna puke..besides tt time when i ate the whole bowl..m stomach was like bloated until i couldn't breathe n i felt really uneasy..so yeah..n besides my diet is not eat less lorh..yah..so i'm keeping to it..so far so gd..no temptation..wahahhaa..+smiles+...


after tt we headed back hm wif my mummy..well my mother bought alot of things for dinner..dinner tonight will really be simple..ahahhaa..yeah..well we also bought a cake for one of our neighbour cos it is going to be her bday tomolo..yeah!!hope she likes it..hahaha..well okay tt's all for now!!..toodles..i spent too much time online le..better run away..yeah?byebye..+disappear+...

i hope for a better tomolo n a better future

heehee..man i was fascinated of wat i ate..here we go...
breadfast:
one orea biscuit wif a cup of milo

lunch:
a donut n a egg tart

dinner:
a cup of cocktail n 3 Sticks beef satay

believe me..tt's all i ate...hahaha..kinda fascinating ain't it sia!..wahahaha....+smile sMIle+...

well..i must say this is the first time i haben been blogging in for the longest time..yeah!it's really been long..so how are you pple?man i sure do miss alot of pple!!


hmm..lets start wif yesterday..hahaha..went out wif my cutey er zi again..haha..she is so darn cute..+smilex+..ohoh plus jess also..man school days are really passing very slowly and i'm chafe about the whole thing!!really i must say..it kills!!..+okay nxt pt+..haha..well after school jess n i headed to J8 to get change outa our school U...n +shrugs+..most of the toilets were upgrading!!+bang walls+..we headed n tried for all the levels n only one level tt was level 3 had the un-touched toilet..wahahhaa...as i was walking towards the toilet...my notti er zi was actually hiding at the back of me..well i was so anxious to get a toilet to change n not be late until i dun even noe sum1 is at the back of me following me..hahaa..not until jessica told me..she said"anna..dun look back"...then i was like?uh?dun look back..this is getting weird n i decided to find out for myself wat was happening..then when i turn..my er zi tried to hide..but haha..caught her red handed..+smile+..cos she gt no where to hide..+sly n evil laugh+...heehee..she was all in black n wif her cool hat..heehee...she look cool sia!!heehee....then gt ourselves change..then my er zi gave me a white plastic bag..n guess wat?it was my fav...SUGAR DONUT...hahaha...!!n then inside..there is also an EGG TART!!heehee..she remembered!!hahaha..i didn't noe she rememebered tt i liked to eat egg tarts..haahhaa...zhen you xin!!hahahaa..wo mei you bai yang wo de er zi le..hahaha....heehee..+smilex+..heyhey..thanks ar er zi!..wahahaha...


off we went n headed towards town!!hahaha...we alighted at somerset..then walked to heeren..yeah..bcos y?jess wanted to get her 5566 cD..yeah yeah..she is one really big big big fann off them..okay enough enough enough..haha..nxt..well in heeren..er zi met sum frends..so while jess went to pay..n since i was alone..i decided to head for the classical n jazz section..see if i can find any Cd so tt my brother can buy!!hahaha..well..i found the chinese orchestra one tt my brother really like n the other one is the er hu one tt my brother recently fell in loved wif it..yeah..i shall go tell him about it...after jess paid for the Cd...she came in n joined me...then later er zi also came in le..yeah..we left the place together n when we headed outa heeren..it was time to bid farewell to jess..yeah..well..after tt...left both of us..since we gt nth to do..i asked er zi for her opinion..well..she said if i were to choose..i will land you in a movie threate..hahaha..okay..so we headed dwn to lido..yeah...


hmm...i wanted to watch school of rock but the timing was so late n i will not be able to make it...so..after much looking..we saw a movie tt has a timing tt is my cup of tea for the day..hahaa wat in the rubbish world am i toking?hahaha..n tt show was Ju-ON 2..hahaa..it's really stupid but really scary..the plot of the story is really simple..is just about the small boy trying to find the mother tt's all...yah...tt simple..but there is sure alot of scary parts..hahaha..in the cinema..sumtimes i'm not scare by it..but i get shocked by pple's scream!wah..i'm telling you..i sat there actually nth happen one..but after the girls infront started letting out ear pericing scream..i gt a shock..hahaha...so was er zi..haha...well..its really disgusting ..all the blood n the face..all white..YUCKS!!...okay no more no more..dun wanna remind myself of it..


after the movie..my stomach really feels sick...felt like vomitting..after all the scenes i saw on ju-on..we took a bus back..which is 105..then the bus was all crowded..yeah..finally i gt hm..then i sent my er zi off to the bus stop..bcos she needed to go meet sum1..yeah...after a hug..i left n ran all the way hm..heehee..i was supposed to be hm at 5.30..but i reached hm almost 7..yeah..i was really late..lucky my mother didn't really scold me..hahaa...+smilex..thank God+..wahahah...


yeah then at night my family headed to sarah's house..yeah..sorry ar sarah tt i didn't msg you..my hp was not wif me..my mother confiscated my phone..i'm sorry...
i here anna apologise to sarah for not msging her back n to stay over...really sorry to disappoint you..yeah...


well..we did our practice at sarah's house..then after tt we headed hm..it was already like 11.30 already..i was all sleepy n really tired..msg my er zi..hahaa..then she so cute worx...hahaha...after washing up..i headed for my bed n i was knocked out in a few minutes...tt's how tired i was!!hahaha...+smilex+..well..today ill be heading to east coast..yeah!!...go cycling yah!!long time nv go le!!hahahaha..this time..cool!+smile smile+..okay i gtg le..love everyone!!n miss everyone!!+muacks muacks+...toodles

i'm so angry can...haiz..i was toking to my nui er then my mother was like you counciler is it?i was like no..just plain chatting..she dun believe me..every frend tt i haf..she will criticise one neh..can she stop doing tt?i dun like it..
then everytime say when i go out wif them i'm not happy..n when i go out wif my frends i'm happy..wat rubbish!...can't take it anymore!+arghhhh+...

moreover i'm feeling really stress..school i'm having so many things to settle n get it right..n coming up i'll be having a chinese test n i haben finish studying it..i only like studied 3 chapter outa one whole yr of sec1's work..argh...this is killing me..especially the school!..+screams+...
...screaming out looud..

hmm..it's been really long ever since i blog..i just woke up from my nap..+yawns+..suppose to sleep longer..but i had to wake up to haf my dinner..yeah..today i beat the record..i only had 1 meal!!hahaha...straving in process..+evil laugh+ i'm now surfing the net to get my new blogskin..i cant seem to be able to get into my own blog..+sigh+..maybe it's high time i should change to a new one..man..i will haf to spent alot time in it to get it done..well tt will be another day when i'm free..+yeah+...


hmm..today i went out wif my cutest nui er..hmm or should i say er zi?well hahaha...i still think she should be my nui er..heehee...+smiles+..well..yeah..she waited for me outside my school..then we walked all the way to heartland..well the park tt i wanted to bring her..she actually went before..+sigh..no more surprise le+...heehee...yeah..moreover it was raining be4 we went there..so yeah..cannot sit n enjoy the breeze..continue walking..finally we reached heartland..hahaha..then walk to MRt go to chinatown..hahaha...believe it or not..i tis kinda woman would actually visit chinatown on weekdays..n believe me..chinatown today gt alot of pple wor!God noes Y...school is reopening n there gt so many pple..+amazed+..heehee..well rain showered us wif it's blessing..i gt wet n she was not..cos she gt a hat n her waterproof jacket on..hahaha..several times she tried using the hat to cover my head..but..hahaha me this rebellious mummy of hers..hahaha kept running away..heheee+smile+..hahaha..then we went to her private school..cos she needed to pay her school fees..heehee...it had been overdue for a long time..yah..+poor girl+..well..after tt we continue to laze around chinatown walk here walk there aimlessly..hahaha....yah..


finally it was time for me to go home..we sat the nEl hm..she sent be back hm+thanks nui er..muacks+..then she left to head to town...she gt to work today..poor girl...no work no pay..she sick summore lorh..my poor little darling nui er..aiyoyo...


reached hm..had my bathe..then msg to my nui er abit then later when i was sleeping half way...my nui er called..well tok to her for awhile then later put dwn..i continued wif my sleep..+sleepY+...wahhhhhh...+sob sob+..hahaha....ltr i gt maths tuition n tomolo i gt maths tuition..thanks to ms gan..aiyo!!2nd day of this wk give us test le..+mummmmmyyyyyyy+....wahhhhh+sigh+...
yeah..tt's about it..everyone tc alright?+muacks muacks+..nui er you tc okay?love ya always!!hahaha...byebye..toodles..