haiz, dunno wat's wrong my stupid computer, cannot open any windows at all
haiz..gt to wait for my brother to return from tekong


today had dance practise
and then tried the back flip..hahah
cool though, but when i do it, my back hurts..
oh well, i haf a bandaged calf now..
well dance until dunno wat's wrong wif my nerves
*yawns*
haiz..i guess i'll go back to studying now
byebye..
*princess leaves*

*waves*,now i'm in school, doing some shit survey for the school
oh wat the hell lah
well, i'm aparently i cannot get into the survey cos i'm a retainee.
oh well, who cares,
i dun bother..
i hate my school anyway
can't wait to fly outa school man
n tt's it, i'm going to count my days man
hahahhaa..*evil laugh*
shit man
the bell just rang and meaning i haf to go..
oh well..*sigh sigh*
arghhh!!!...
my face gt new injury
cos yesterday during Pe, played badminton
then my frend nv see me, then we both intercepted,
then her racket hit my cheek bones,
oh well...
it's swollen now
and i can't sleep or laugh properly
oh well...
it's causing me difficulites..
well, today gt dance practice again
haiz..muscle ache everywhere..
oh well,,you'll see me limping if you're lucky enough to catch me walking around
cos i'm probably be missing in action
hahahhaa...
oh well..teacher chasing us away..gtg byebye
love ya pple..

dun really feel like toking lately,
hmm, went out wif ah gong today to esplande to study,
well it was certainly a surprise thing for her
told her tt i'll be going alone
then asked if she would like to come join me
knowing tt she had tuition,
she was so nice to push back her tuition just to pei me
hahaha..nice ah gong i have
oh well,
after eng tuition,
headed to her house
her parents were all at home and i was damn scare
cos over the phone,
ever heard her mother being fierce be4
yeah..first time see the mother
the mother like seems quite nice
yeah, at least she smiled at me?
gd sign?haha..not sure
anyway, changed to my gio tank top
then ah gong went to bathe
then i was playing her piano,
then played wif coco for awhile
long time nv see coco le
well she is certainly doing fine
yeah..


then after tt head for bishan, took a train dwn to city hall
yeah..
then head to esplande
studied until 1
then ah gong gtg..then i pei her go MRt
then i promised lisa to visit her today
then went to find her
cannot find..then tried another round of luck
finally i found her
hahaha..then sat there for about 30 mins tok to her
then headed back home,
on the way home, i slept on the bus
after come home watched Vcds
then called girl girl to ask her how she is
yeah..then like tt
dad came home
then headed to the hawker infront of my block
had dinner
then went jalan-jalan
then head to G-value, gd luck and the medical store
yah..then head home for the chinese show on channel U at 7 o'clock,
hahaha...nice show
just finishing bathing
tt;s about my day lah yeah


to skye:
hey girl, how are you?
sorry to make you so worried about me
well, i'm okay lah..
no worried alright?
wat about ur side?
okay ma?
well, certainly hope everything will be okay..yeah..tc..love yah
*hugs n kisses*..


to my ah gong:
hey ah gong, thanks for pei-ing me today
and even willingly pushed back the tuition
thanks nehs..you're the best ah gong i ever had..hahaha..*hugs n kisses*..hahaha...
love ya girl!!..
tc ar...

hey pple, finally it's like friday nehs, oh well,
y is there some grey stuff infront of my screen!!idoit..
well today was not bad of a day,
but was quite torturous though,
cos the day was super super long..
well can't blog alot today
shall like go study
but hope tt when i study i won't fall asleep
yeah..oh well..
hmm...tt's about it..*muacks everyone*
love you all!
*hugs n kisses*...


Stress stress stress...
the princess is all stress about prelims
however no actions are being taken..
chay!!..
hahaha..*watever*..hahaha
toodles!...

y when the moment i flip the diary tt you gave me,
memories start floating back?
y would i still smile when the name dear is written on ur letters?
y?y?
i thot tt if i dun touch it or read it, i won't feel a thing
but y is this happening?
y is there tt tinge of hurt in me?
y?
wat haf i done so wrong to deserve all these from you?
will returning all the memories tt we created work?
if tt will, i'll do anything to erase it off


how can you do all these to me?
i hate you for everything
y when the moment i smell the perfume
it just reminds me so much of you?
y?i hate you for causing me all these hurts now!!
i really hate you!
i decriminate you!!...i HATE you!!...


y must i see you on tt rainy morning?
was it you or was it sum1 else?
but even it's you..y should i feel sad?
y tt sadness just overcome me?
n y do i feel so angry about it?
after such a long time i shouldn't feel a single thing..
y?y?
i dun understand!!!!...
i seriously dun!!..i hate you!!!!!...
I seriously hate you!!...


I HATE YOU

just had english oral today
oh well
hmm, all i can say is i'm just hoping for a pass
the examiner was kinda jovial though
at least she smiles n laughs
well kinda enjoyed oral
but deep inside me
i was still afraid tt i said sumthing wrong
and when i'm nervous,
i will stuttle
yeah
oh well, i'm not going to cry over spilt milk
heehee..yeah continuing on wif life


tomolo is my ah kong cum PTS turn..hey girl,
all the best alrighto?you can do it!*smiles smiles*
no worries, examiners are frendly n nice!*smile smiles*
yeah yeah..*hugs hugs*
all the best alright?yeah*wink*


wat the hell is wrong wif my blog?
aiyo!cannot tahun, my blog so plain
i wan it complex n complicated
yeah
oh well, i shall change it as soon as i find one really nice one
hey skye, how was ur oral?did it went well?must keep me updated okay?
smiles smiles
ohh toking about update, shall change ahem name to 3notes
if not she will slaughter me neh!
hahaha..today got otak to mumm!..*smiles*..


wat the hell is wrong wif my weigh?
i can't seem to go dwn any further
i still wanna lose weight
and i'm not having sugar drinks lately
wat's wrong..*fustrated*
oh well!...
anyway..shall think about tt part later


wah today sum1 pissed me off again!
can't stand tt woman can
come to my class wanna borrow lit
her hp bill dun even wanna take responsibility
and not only tt, made aisyah pay,
then now girl girl only wans aisyah to pay wat she owe girl girl
and now she ran away
then when i confronted tt bitch,
telling her to only witness for girl girl to the police
but tt bitch said i'm washing my hands off both of them
wah piang
pls lorh..
pple pay for you the bill
then you do this kinda things
tt bitch is putting girl girl in the spot lorh!
wat kinda things is this?
girl girl hao xin sign a line for her
then now dun wanna pay!..
wah shit can!
then when i tok to her
her attitude just get worse lorh
bet she nv call girl girl
hate her attitude
can't stand it lorh!....


oh watever, can't be bothered
shan't tok to her ever again
i dun wanna waste my energy on such a bitch!...
stupid attitude!!!!...Pissed me off


my brother today just entered army
really pity him
though always wanted him to get outa the house
but thinking tt my one n only brother has to like go army and suffer all the hard ship
wah i xin tong neh
well, this morning i asked him to tc of himself n be4 i left for school, i gave him a hug..hahah
hope tt hugs will last him through the army days
so pityful
so lonely lorh
everyday nothing but trainning n more trainning
poor brother..haiz..
my parents will be going to visit him
then i shan't le..cos only gt 2 tickets..yeah
n i guess i won't be going for carlise house warming
i cannot tahun seeing so many pple, makes me n gives ma a headache
yah..
oh well..i'll return hm n do watever i haf to do pa..


hmm..really thinking should i get a hipster pants or not
always wanted one...So nice neh
hahahhaa...thinking hard hard...
well yups..
prelims are nearing n i'm not studying..wat the hell
i shall start today..
really start studying..yups..okay means i shall go, after dinner str8 to studying


oh oh yesterday gt charm
so nice nice nice!hhahhahahha
nice show, everyone should watch it
i catch is every session
hahaha..cool man!
wif all the potion and all
it's fantastic...
hahaha..okay gtg...
princess takes her leave
*waves gdbye*...

heyhey pple!how are you man!
haben been blogging neh
well thanks to the dance all those nehs
yah..art lah!
mother lah!
haiz..alot of things lah!
oh well...


school was super draining man!
it was practically draining my energy
and i couldn't even write after my art lessons
well later i shall go back
today shall skip dinner
yeah!
Oh well, nth special to me
always been doing tt
and guess wat?cos of the sweating in dancing and not eating,
i lost weight
hahaha
well yeah!*winks winks*..


oh well, this thurs i'll be having my eng Os oral
wah piang, damn scary nehs
hope nth will go wrong
lets pray
hahaha..yeah..praying works!
haha..


i also dunno wat to say nehs
heather(PTS) had been like writing to me
then we're like okay
but these few days she like weird weird like tt
mood swinging from end to end..
oh well, PTS ar, dun think so much le lah
okay?
ohoh, own you a letter
shall write to you asap
dunno if you will be reading this,
but anyway, wishes you all the best
take care okay?
must eat arh!!
if not beat buttocks arh..hahaha..*giggles*
hahahaha..*smiles smiles*


To skye:
hey girl girl
sorry about my mother tt side
keeps nagging at you
sorry about all those hurting words my mother said to you
but i just wanna thank you for coming over yesterday to help me!*thanks*
*princess offers skye a flower to xpress her gratitude*..hahaha
take care!
all the best for ur Os chinese...jia you okay?*smiles smiles*
and *hugs hugs*

Friday the 13, a bad day?
yeah, it truly is one
my godfather's dad just passed away this morning
and i only recieved this news only after i reached home
hope my godfather would be okay..
n hoping they can take it
my condolences goes to my godfather's family






*one minute of silence*






oh well, wat a day i had
i was again tt blur
haha..
y?
cos i thot today i gt chem pract
and i learnt for it
then end up it's nxt fri
and i didn't learn for my maths
you see how blur i can get?
yeah!
sotong i must say, a sotong
oh anyway..
today i finally remembered to visit the goldsmith shop
to get my anklet fixed
for the second time,
it broke
yeah


all happy tt is' fixed now
and it has the ling ling sound on it
hahaha..cos gt bell
then wherever i go
you hear the bell comes..
tt would be me!
hahaa..
oh yeah!


today heather cried..poor girL
wanted to go comfort her
but i dunno how to do it
i also dunno wat reaction she would gibe me if i went ahead to comfort her
yeah


to heather:
hey girl, dun be upset already okay?
well you have a nice smile
remember only when you smile, i'll smile
it makes me happy to see you smiling and laughing away
like you always do
dun cry over it already okay?
you gt friends all around you
i'm sure they will stay by you
And they will comfort you
if u need anything or need sum1 to tok to
just call me okay?
yeah!
i'll always be there to listen to you
yeah!..no worries..k?
sorry today i wasn't of much help
can't make you happy
and cannot make you smile
really sorry
i dunno if you will be reading this
but anyway,
just wanna say tt frends will be there for you
so you dun haf to be worried tt you will be alone alright?
love ya girl!
tc okay?
*hugs n kisses*


to skye:
hey girl,
although i wanna go Laselle-SIA
i won't be able to make it there even if i haf the talent
cos my mother is unable to afford the expensive fee for the school
besides it's a private school
i wish i could enter..
really wishing hard,
but i doubt it would happen..
yeah..
must probably i'll enter nafa
yeah..if i still wanna take under art
well, guess we can't enter the same school
it would really be nice if we could
yeah
oh well, study hard okay?
love you bro!
*hugs n kisses*..


*princess takes her leave n bows*..

ARghhhh!!...today i recieve my chinese "O" level results,
guess wat i was really very blur,
everyone was worried the day be4 today,
and i didn't even noe anything,
i was as blur as some sotong can!
hahaha..
oh anyway,
really only noe like at 7+ in the morning
when i was at the bus stop wif yulian
then only at that time then she told me tt we today confirm get back chinese Os..
then i was like in my heart, "sure anot?"
cos the days be4 we gt rumour and then everyone believed then in the end it wasn't true
so this time nt many pple believe
then after reaching school
i heard heather said that today confirm + a 100% chop, today will get back results
tt time i wasn't really panicking..i was like again sum rumours?
hahaha..
yeah..relax me had my lessons
not relaz until the announcment came..
wah piang..every muscles in my body started getting tense man!
really..i hands were all cold n was really afraid..
then every1 headed to the hall
ms gan said tt we did badly and it was the worse of all the 7 yrs..
i thot she was lying,
but i was true after wat mrs lee said
oh goodness....


then when she showed the results of the class..
my class gt 2 failures..
and both are D7..yeah
i was like die already, it's bound to be me,
cos i tink i didn't really do well for my paper one
then we headed to lao shi
then when it came to my turn
i saw my results
but i was feeling really numb, cos i really dunno wat to feel
as if i nv get my results...
i obtain a C6..
yeah!..


after i came hm
i told my mother,she was happy about it..
and i was like..wat?you're happy
then she was like yeah!at least my money didn't go dwn the drain...
yeah
then i was like, my frends all had better grades..
then i was feeling really sad
wanted to retake but my mother just refuse to let me..
haiz..
oh well..
watever it is..i must thank God for allowing me to pass
i thot my hard work went dwn the drain..
but i guessed it didn't ..
yeah...


today maths remedial was really boring
i almost fell asleep..
and tt noisy EUodia kept toking toking toking..
aiyoh!...
she cannot stop disturbing jillian..
poor jillian..yeah
oh well..
nvrm..
tt's about my day neh..
tml i gt test..
i shall haf my bathe and shall lock myself in my rm to study
yeah!..heehee...
gd bye pple!!..
love you babes!stay cool!


to skye:
hey girl, dun be upset about ur grades already okay
you did ur best
jia you for the rest of ur subjects..
i noe you can do it n you gt the potential to do it..
we shall jia you today
and yeah!tc girl!...
dun worry already!..
you will enter laselle!...no worries..
i gt confidences in you
dun mish the chance..it's there for you to grab,
dun let the oppportunty slip away alright?
yeah!


to jinghan
hahaha..hey girl..no more threatening notes??hahahah
jk jk jk..you okay anot?
you dun fall sick okay?
must jia you for ur end yr exams alright?
heehee..must manage time well arhh...
yeah!...i noe you can make it..
jia you!

oh gosh, this is seriously bad, my blog has gone mad!hahahha...i saw wendy's blog!hahaha..shall link her!hahaha...


well today gt the national day celebration, then this time the sec4s dun haf to get toasted at the grandstand, instead we were loacated at our own classrm..ahaha..we gt to enjoy every single bit of it and we gt more space than anyone..hahaha...my shin now has an xtra scar..thanks to the wire casing..was about to stand up, then i lift my leg up, then my shin gt scratched..then now gt scar..darn pain when i was bathing, cos it tore my skin..yah..imagine..*yucks!n ouch*


then michelle was the commander for the whole parade!man she was so cool!*wee wee wee*..hahaha you go girl michelle!..but poor her, she had back ache then she was like complaining...she saw a doc and she had a muscle pull..poor girl..haiz..well let's just pray tt she gets better...yups!tc ar girl!..*wink wink*..
then beishan also commanded the np team..wow!..both michelle and beishan's voice darn power neh..hahaha..keep it up man!..heard beishan's bday coming soon..dun really noe the actual date..but i here wishes beishan a very sweet 16 bday!..hahaha...have a great bday!hahahaa...


this yr the band drum major nv throw/flip the stick..haiz..sad case man..every yr, everyone will be looking forward to tt, but this yr dunno y dun haf, maybe she cannot learn in time pa..sigh sigh...anyway, the guest of honor came in late, then made the whole of pri n sec sch pple wait for her..aiyo!..then later, after parade, then head to the hall for a concert..then after everything, i headed hm str8..i was like the few to ran outa school first..dun wish to wait for the whole gang of pl pple to come out to crowd the bus..yups..hahaha..anyway..head hm, bathe and head dwn to bras besah to north bridge centre to fancy paper to get my papers for my papercut..haiz..well...anyway..yups..after tt i headed hm..


in the bus i fell asleep..then gt this old man kept looking at me..aiyoh!well..i can't be bothered..then i was like contining sleeping..yups!..can't take it..the heat was coming into the bus and i was really tired..n i was sleeping in the sun..hahahaa...finally reached hm..had alittle snack be4 i had my beauty sleep..yups!..hahahaha...


oh finally girl girl coming over to my house..ahahahaha...finally get to be crappy wif her again..and then can show her my new dance moves..hahaha..she was like forbidding me to dance..wahahahhaa...*smiles smiles*..then we actually wanted to do the chair dance, but we was like thinking instead of doing the chair dance for the rap part, then we was like thinking we shall do hip hop dance, but dunno whether my crew can make it..esp limin and julie,they all so gu niang..aiyo..think liao makes my hair stand..cannot take it lorh!..argh!...must train them to be more ruged..yups!..then can do the hip hop!well...now haf to depend on jingyi to help us think of the dance steps, then the new moves was actually heather's grp the old moves..then cannot haf tt moves, so we took it..ahahhaa..well reuse, recycle..wahahhaha.....


oh well..tt;s about it lah..
*princess takes her leave *...

sigh..my tummy is upset..sigh..it's feeling weird..oh anyway..i'm like writing leona's testimonal now..abit lame writing for a friend..i thot normally is a teacher writes it for a student?oh well...


continuing on, didn't go for maths remedial yesterday i should say, cos i was like really tired
and i was having a headache, tt's y you see a red line in between my brows..yesh yesh
i noe i look like sum indian!..
shut up, up shut, dwn shut, all around shut shut!!!!
argh!!


anyway..back to topic..hahaha...actually nth much i can say about yesterday, cos' the day was really long
as if it was yrs..
yeah..finally had my long beauty sleep, tt xplains y i cannot sleep now..i had about 3hrs and 45 mins rest..yups...after wake up called girl girl..then tok to her for about 20 mins...watch tv..n more tv..then had dinner..then yups..in my rm until now..hahahaha...oh well..tt's about it!
tc babes!love you all!
*muackkksss*

yippy!finally our whole class made it to the audition!..Thank God..when i was dancing, my heart was pouncing really fast, didn't noe how we fared..then after gt hm, at about 6+, i recieve a call from jingyi, then she said tt we made it thru, and the rule was all the sec4 teams, they cannot disqualify us...hahahaha...thanks God really, cos my whole crew had been really practising really hard, had been staying back often, and ended up neglacting our h/w n studies, often take PE periods to practise..well must thank ms Oh too yah..hahhaha..


another matter tt i was really pissed off, i tell you, sum of the pple in my team, just dun haf tt learning attitude! and i'm angry about it, come on lorh., if we're in it together, we do it as one!!!!....everytime when there is a new move, they would just sit there n do nth lorh, ask them faster eat then come practise, they just sat there like a rock n nv move!..wah piang, damn it KNS can!really pissed off by them!...argh!!!FUCK lah!..today the practise also like tt, audition is like nearing the time le, then they still cannot do it properly, those old moves also cannot make it...argh!..summore they still can say about jess...come on, jess is much better can!..she at least willing to learn, and she would observe us and learn the new moves..still can say her, say urself pa okay?argh!..watever, y am i raving n ranting all the time?y am i always full of angst?


argh!!..really pissed of wif myself!...*pinching my fats in on my tummy*..argh!!fat fat fat!..on diet..hahaha...
me mish girl girl!..haiz..cannot tok to her..sigh sigh!..anyway...i dun tink i'll be going out wif her, dun dare call her anymore, cos is like i scare her mother scold her, then i really dun wan tt to happen..maybe later in the night then i call her pa..catch things up wif her, hoping i can make it ( as in being able to stay awake pa..)..haiz..mishing girl girl so much!..ahahhaa..still remember the times when we spent together,...went out wherever we wanted..hahaha, so fun lorh!..hahahhaa..haiz..prelims coming..need to study..haiz..cannot play le..haiz..anyway..okay gtg..hope i dun fall asleep when i'm having my tuition..haiz..
*[princess takes her leave]*

I just realise that i'm of no value to anyone!!forget it, i shall enter the world of my own n i shall go back to slashing and drinking!.. GO AWAY!!..

i just can't take anymore!y does everyone do it to me?y?y? am i just meant for pple to make use?am i?am i?y can't pple listen to me when i tell sum1 things?i thot if i was willing to hear pple out, in return they will listen back to me?i guess i'm wrong..really wrong..really wrong..a big mistake..i dun get thanked for wat i had done, n instead i haf to take all the things! i cannot take it..y everytime i tok to her, i feel as if i gt nth to say?is it bcos we toked to much?but whenever i dun tok to her, i feel tt i'm not caring for her, just wanted to ask her if her first day of work was alright...when i telling her about wat happened in school, she was just merely concentrating on the tv programme...she was laughing..does sorry always works?i dun think so now...


wat's wrong wif me?am i suffering from PMS? or wat?i feel it's nt me..just nt me?
i feel as if no1 is around to listen to me,
i dare not call skye anymore, dun wan to burden her
well i guess i shall suffer it in silences
better tt way, at least i noe i can do it on my own..
dun really need to worry so much things..
really..just cutting only
had been doing it for a long time already
so wat's new if i start again?
so? so wat?
or maybe i shall start MIA-ing?
God noes wat is turning me into?
maybe a cold hearted person?or heartless person?
tt laughs at every sadist things?


or maybe the sight of blood excites me?
i shall try just tonight when everyone is sleeping..
doubt my mother will notice..oh well...
who ever bothers about me?
where can i say out my feelings?
only in blog?
can it reply?
hahahha...it can't!!....it can't!!!


After knowing that everyone has straighten out their lives
gt wat they achieve,
i shall leave pa..
i dun see a need to stay anymore
even if i stay is just an xtra character
might as well go for gd?
i dunno lah i dunno lah


in the morning you might see me smile n laugh
but has anyone think about wat happened inside me?
it has been already been broken..
just tt i haben been really caring about my broken heart..
y must everything repeat?
i dun get anything gd outa doing gd for pple?
does it always haf to hurt me like this way?
and always this way?
y must it always land in this manner?
cant it change it's style?
can't it can't it?????????

haf invested in so many things
wat i get in return?
forget it lah yah?
no1 will ever appreciate me!
i hate everyone!
fuck off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aiya! i seriously dunno wat happened to my blog!
irritating me, seriously i dunno wat happened to my entry for today one
weird..oh nvrm
abit sayang i noe, cos watever i typed sum of you pple haben get a chance to read it
but however, i gt to apologise n i'm unable to solve the problem


well i came back to post another entry hoping tt nth is wrong
n praying that all the other entries will come back
after reading skye's blog.....i'm feeling..as wat is shown sorry state


to skye:
hey bro, really sorry about wat had happened
i noe you're pissed about girlgirl that doesn't noe how to grow up
i'm really sorry to bother you whenever she gt problems
i noe you had been constantly making sacrifices to help girlgirl up
seriously i would like to thank you on her behalf.
she will be working for her mum for 6 mths n then will be taking driving lessons
and be sent for courses, i guess doing business for her mum pa
i'm seriously sorry to make you feel pissed off..
really sorry
knowing you haf so many things to handle urself
and i haf to budge into ur plans to ruin it..
i'm sorry..knowing you're pissed..i shan't say any longer
when tt day comes when you're no more pissed then you tag on my board?
i dunno
i'm just really sorry tt i'm always troubling you..
sorry sorry
always gibing you the last min kinda things..
sorry...
*the royal bows and apologise and takes her leave*