haiz..wat's wro

the thot of just studying makes me faint!
i cannot take the torment anymore..when will Os just be over?
haiz..
sigh sigh..
haben been sleeping well..
i haf been slacking..and i noe i shouldn't be doing so...
but my sleepyness keeps getting the better of me..
wat am i suppose to do man?
i really dunno..
should i like prick toothpicks on my eyebrows?
i really dunno..
haiz..i need so remedy to make me awake and not fall asleep..
Os is so near me..
and all i can say is i'm not even ready for it..
shit man!...
i'm like so useless!!..
i need motivation..but sumhow it will disappear within minutes..
arghhh!!...damn it!!
help someone...
i need sum1 to sit beside me do their own work..but on the other hand pressurizing me
to study hard..
haiz...who will in the world do tt for me?
everyone is so easy..
i shall learn to be independent..
can't always rely and depend on pple..
someday ill be alone where no1 is around me..
so yeah..
things will just b fine..
really hope i can do my Os...
and pass it well..
haiz...
hopes are pin up high..
hope i hit the bulleye right..
if not i can say bye...

Damn it..I'm suffering from a bad headache since morning!!
i was reluctant to go to school today, cos i was really tired
and my eyebags just gt worse..
so bad tt i had to resort to applying my concealer to cover it up!
i'm so irritated today!..(shall do my explaination later)


if i hadn't haf to see my principal,
i wouldn't even come to school today..
seriously..everyday go to school do nth...
and i'm suffering from a bad bad headache...
*sigh sigh*...
and i'm growing FAT!!...
arghh!!damn it man!!sickening!!..
wat's wrong wif me?
i'm gonna blow everyone up!!and cause their lungs to explode into pieces...
i'm damn it pissed!


pissed with this girl tt doesnt haf compassion for a 4A2 girl tt is going to have
o level practicals tml can!...
wah piang..rach has a cracked contact lense
and she needs to see her optitionist..
and tt meany old beany didn't even allow!!..
can't take it can!!..
wah piang..
today went to see principal like seeing the queen of some country..
aiyah..but she was nice la..
she was really encouraging..
yeah!*smiles*..
oh tt's about my day...
shan't type anymore...
by looking at my own computer caused me to haf a bigger headache!...
Toodles...

===slams the door===

hmm...well,let me see..wat happened today?
well..today i went to MOE to hand in the art pieces
actually my class was not suppose to go, but we insisted
and....mrs ong agreed!yeah!this time Mrs ong rocks!hahaha
well i must say she is not bad of a teacher except tt she will harass
us when we dun hand in things
she is really nice actually,cos she makes sure we will hit our target
yesh she is strict in her marking,but i think it's always for our own gd..
yeah..oh anyway..today mrs wong didn't come, then the rest of my classmates,
went to join mr gan's class..
then mel and i went dwn back to E.hall and then stayed there
poor jillian was all alone..
hahaha..then she came to join us..
did alittle maths...till 9.00am
we left..for MOE..hahaha..
then carried everything dwn..paintings
papercuts, prepartory work..
then shirley's chair..
the lorry carried the paintings and shirley's chair
the papercuts and the prep. work went on the bus wif us..
well poor mei yan, kristy, terry and me had to stand and hold the papercuts
to keep them in their position..
the driver was reallyy driving hard..
so the ride there was not only fast but also really bumpy..
yeah!..
after not long, we reached our destination, all feeling curious and anxious
about how the other schools did..
hahahah...well..to our surprise...MOE's building was really old!!..
it was like some old school!..
really..hhahaha..the funniest was that they actually hung a sign on the light attached to the wall
anyway, we carried everything up to the second level..
the work tt we saw was should i say average..
i saw alittle of the structures tt some had done..they were average..
i must say..i'm really proud of wat our art girls had done..
our work had even been stressing 1 teacher from one school...
ahahaha...well..i dun think our school is the best..
we still haf to be battling with CHIJ girls..
damn..heard from MRs ong tt the school train their girls in art..
like our school,making every1 take Lit...yeah..
With all the papercuts tt the rest of my frends had done..
i doubt i can make an A for myself..
i dun care if it's an A1 or A2..i just wan to get a A..
yeah...i shall work hard for my drawing paper..
heard from mrs ong tt cambridge pple are kind in their marks..
she said tt as long as they see hardwork being put in, they will give you the marks..
well i hope it's really true about tt..
....*sigh*....
oh anyway..i shall get back to my studying..
my time for studying is really running out..
okay...toodles...
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arghhh!!!*cries out loud*..
today was my Os practical.
damn it!..guess wat?i didn't finish my paper!!..
arghhh!!oh well, i shan't brag abt it..
i shan't cry over spilled milk..
anyway..shall just do well for my therory paper can liao..
and i hope the paper will not be hard..
thank God today my paper was not difficult,just very tedious..
alot of things to do..due to the lack of time mangement,
i didn't finish my paper in time..
though i didn't, i must still thank God for all the guidness he had grant me
throughout my practical..
yeah...
oh well..
hmm..yesterday, i went out shopping after the lunch at hougang mall
boy i haben been there for really ages..
not much changes though,
some new shops opened..
poped my head into the shops...
hahaha...pop here pop there..
ahahaha...
first i headed for popular, gt my TYS for bio..cos i lost the answer sheet..
wow!!smart me ya?cos cannot find, then must go and buy new book!..
after tt gt a new bio guide book..yeah..hope it will help in my Os lah..yeah..
then i poped into ice lemon tee..
heehee..they are newly open..
i saw this skirt tt first caught my eyes..
wow!!..so nice can!!the cutting all tt, is just wat i was looking for..
the best part is the threads sew on the skirt could be seen and it was the pattern..
the lady let me try green...
yeah..it's alittle shiny...
boy i fell in love wif it the first time..
when i wore it, it feel so comfortable..
hahaha..boy i had my heart on it..hahaha..
tt skirt,it's a comfirm a taken chop!!..hahahaha..
yeah..my mother placed the chop..hahahaha..(cos she pay)
then the girl, she asked me to get something to match it..
yeah..well try here try there..
i tried the first one, was damn complicated..hahhaa..
didn't really like it..but..huimin liked it.hahahaha...
oh well..wat can i say?a unique and complicated girl..*evil laughs*
hehehee...
tried many others until my mom picked one..tt is yellow in colour,
in the inside it has a white layer(like a 2 piece shirt)..it looks like i'm wearing a white SB with the yellow shirt..
yeah...
well..all in all cost $51.80
yeah..expensive man!..yeah..actually wanted only the skirt..
then i told my mother..she said nvrm la..hahaha..
so sweet of her...
oh well..i guess this is a kinda encouragement for me to work hard for my Os..
yeah...Jia you!!can't let anyone dwn!..
yeah...
oh anyway...i'm happy and contented i haf another new pair of clothes in my cupboard..hahaha
i'm watching happytree frends..hahahhaa
relieve my stress alittle..
okay toodles..
today's entry very long..shant spoil all of ur eyes...

bear with the small fonts, i noe really hard to see, but i can't help it, some1 pls teach me HTML?yeah..cos the stupid girl here doesn't really noe html well you noe?yeah!..
oh well..bear with the pink
so far this is the cutest blogskin and the nicest one around..the rest is too comman
yeah..so pls bear wif it..
after Os..i promise i'll do sumthing about it..
so meanwhile you endure the pink,
i'll endure the stress of re-taking my Os...

Love you all babes!
jia you man!

H E L P
haiz..i'm suffering from PMS!!
and i cannot study wif tt swing mood
which swings from one end to another end every min n every sec
secondly, my middle finger hurts..
it feels as if there is a needle poking..
it feels as if it is swollen..
God noes wat's wrong wif it..

sigh sigh sigh...
i really feel like crying now!..
i cannot take it any longer..
my Os are coming..
I'm experiencing a breakdown..
i'm gone..
i'm depress..
someone save me!!...
i cannot take the pressure and the stress i'm giving on myself..
i must fight..but my energy is draining out..
i dunno where to begin..
pple haf already started and they are going to finish already..
and i?where haf i stop?
i'm only at the beginning..
haiz..
i really dunno.
I'm going to cry soon!...
arghhhh!!!!!!!!...
in time to come..i'll be pulling out all my hair...
no more "if only.."
i cannot delay any longer..
the more i think, the more worried i get.
n wif the worries..i'm not able to study..
haiz..i shall continue studying tml..
since i gt no mood n i cannot do it..haiz...
haiz...
practical on MON..hope it wun be difficult..
haiz...
i guess my blues are going no where execpt to stay by me for the nxt 4 days..
arghh..man i hate blues!!...
i just wanna be bright and cheery..
but somethings just can't!!!
nth can change a fact and the truth!!...
i'm stress!!!!
i'm depressed!!!
pressurizing

I HATE O-LEVELS

gosh, y must they create O levels?
i hate the person who came up wif this "brilliant idea"
i must really praise him!..
arghhh!!damn it man!
i dunno how long i can take the stress..
i haf about another 38 more days and i'll be outa the school!
though i noe there will be no more studying for a period of time,
but i noe when i go out to society,
i noe i wun enjoy it much either..
well...
yeah....
so i guess i'll haf to suffer pa..
no more childhood days
haf to grow up to face the real world and reality!...

Oh another day is just about to pass..
boy I think my English standard is deteriorating..
=letting out a sigh=
well best to start practicing..
oh anyway, my day was just horrible..
I had this really bad backache tt is seriously killing me!
oh well..
suppose to do my literature h/w..hahaha
naughty me,sneaked into my blog and drop today's entry
hahaha..
oh well!..
yesterday I had a dream..
I dreamt tt I've gotten back my O levels results..
i passed all my 4 credits but however failed my sciences wif a grade of D7..
at a score of 46.8
really can't let tt happen..
i will make sure tt i pass all my subjects!
yeah..!with my 5 credits I'll be able to get my Levis jeans
sigh..
everyone started revision already
and i still can be watching "America's next top model 2"..
sigh..
wat am i treating my O level as?
a toy?a thing?
wat am i thinking man!
i dunno wat kinda thots is running thru my head!..
hormones haf died..
no sense of urgency at all..
pple worried for me and i can be so relax..
wat in the world is wrong wif my brain?
drank too much fruit juice?ate too much fried stuffs?
drank too many packets of lemon tea?
gosh!..
my brain cells are dying all one by one..
faster by every seconds tt beats on the clock..
adrenaline starts gashing out and into my blood!!...


arghhhh!!!...my art..my art..
i'll haf to hand in nxt monday on the 11th OF OCTOBER 2004
i'm so gonna die!..
like really die?
as in...oh watever you noe wat's the meaning of die?dun you??
if you dun..then God bless you..
my wrist is starting to hurt..
after carrying of the bio prelims papers for ms koh..
thanks alot..
she asked leona and me to carry the papers to the hall..
not knowing tt we had no use for it today..
and after realising she didn't haf anytime to run thru..
she asked us to carry it back for her again..
boy!...nvrm about the hassle..
but my wrist hurts now..
hope i dun haf to go back to the sensei for any rubbing..
oh anyway the sensei has shifted already..
hahahaha..


oh anyway, i better get back to my lit!..
muacks..
toodles..love you all...

*sigh*
really sad case man
haf to go back school tml
really stressed up
can't wait to get outa PL
of course hoping to pass my Os wif flying colours
my daddy promise me, if i obtain 5 credits
i will be able to get my long await levi's jeans!
boy am i gonna work for it sia!
hahahaha..
oh well..
so much for the rewarding part..
Let's snap back to reality
wah piang..
i tell you, everyday stay back in school till 4 is really of no joke
by the time you reach home
you will not be able to continue studying
its really draining and tiring..
everday we are isolated from the whole school
and be in the hall
i really feel detacted from the school
well though i tink is gd..
but still, it's really upset..
you dun get to see the crowds walking pass ur classrm
you will just miss all those lessons in the classroom..
where everyone can make as much noise as they will like
but however now we are restricted..
well but i tink it's quite worthwhile though..
oh well..*sigh sigh*...


getting really tired of everything..
i just wan this yr to fly fast..
really can't wait to get outa school..
well though i noe in the sec school life
students are well protected in there..
but yeah..all has to grow up
i really wonder now where will i end up?
seriously
then my irritating partner keeps saying
i dunno where you will end up..
then she keep saying like i'll end up somewhere bad lorh..
wah piang doesn't mean she is smart she has to put me dwn wor!..
wat kinda partner i haf!!..
arghhhh!!!..
irritated already!...
fart it!!...
*yawns*..better go do lit!..haiz..
toodles..

--walk away--