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cos i simply cried almost for about 3 hours yesterday non-stop.
Practically crying myself to sleep..
now suffering from the darn side effects
which is when i rub my eyes, it hurts like mad,
it feels like sun burnt!
i've been hurt again..
now trying to stand up again..
i've made a very impt decision to my life,
which is to get out of watever i'm in,
to move out and start a new life.
probably in this manner i'll get happy?
no more worries?no need to feel sad anymore?
i really dunno if i'm making the right choice..
it seems like it,
but still feeling uncertain..
even i'm hurting, will tt person even care or noe?
probably tt person wun even bother..
tt person did so many things to hurt me, to betray me..
i'm not baring grudges,
just feeling upset tt's all..
y tt person must do so many things to make my heart bleed?
i thot after th crying i might feel better?
or maybe a nap or sleep might cure my bleeding heart..
but things isn't the way i tink it is..
matters doesn't disappear overnight..
time is there to heal..
pple are there to love me and to care for me..
i thank all my frends who are beside me, nursing this wounded girl here..
thank you for ur time and patiences.
school is certainly going to start for me,
i'm hoping i can nurse my wound be4 i start my school..
so tt i can really concentrate on my studies?yeah..
gd idea isn't it?
hahaha, maybe i can b sum big big artist nxt time,
hahaha,if tt happens?probably the sky is already on the ground at my feet..
hahahahaha....
right rubbish aside...
i dunno if i should join di and han on sun?hahaha..
haiz, depends lah..yah...
haiz..when you're hurt, even the best place in the world you wouldn't wan to go..
tt's how i'm feeling..the hurt has overcome me...
it's painful..it hurts badly..
i'm hoping for sum1 to show me wat is real ....
and wat i can see for my future,
i need sum1 who has confidences and able to inspire me to do things..
give me the assurance tt the person will b always nxt to me when i need tt person..
will i ever find tt person?
God will sure to send me one..
time is all i need to built myself up..
to mould my character to sumthing more plasant to His eyes..
and Not for human eyes...
though tt wish is so hard to obtain..
but time and determination can certainly lead me there..
back to HIS arms once again..
i've been lost, N now i'm found..
i was nv considered lost or small in His sight..
He kept me close, just tt i didn't realise...
He was always there when i needed Him..
He took all my pain away and all my Hurts away..
in Time to come, this Pain will go...
May i heal completely and b happy once again..
time is all i need....