will going for interview tml over at orient design located at outram.
then nxt wk will go to jurong east for another interview.
hope 1 of this company will take me in.
currently having my 4mths break.
then have to work to save up money for my grad show nxt yr

assessment was okay i guess?
seems like i didn't do well enuff for this term..
just feeling suxy noe.
my mood hadnt been well nwadays..
i'm not enjoy every moment of my holidays.

my heart seems to be so heavy..
i feel like throwing watever tt is weighing me dwn out so tt i can walk ard freely w/o feeling a single hurt.
even when pple tries to hurt me, i wun feel a single thing..

i'm not strong..
i'm just acting to be one.

i'm just not taking this blow all at one time.
i'm pushing it back...
pushing it back, but however it's still within my viewing range..
i cant get it out..it's just stuck..

i said i'm willing to wait..
i really am..
though the ray of hope you gave me, helps me pass my days slowly w/o much difficulty..
but still, i hope tt ray would come nearer to me..
to let me see day again..to hep me out of the pitch dark hole i'm currently in now..

i'm now bruised due to the knocks i bang myself when i'm in the pitch dark hole..
hoping when you return, you will be there to nurse all my wounds and hurts..

pls dun wake me up from this fairytale,
cos i wan this fairytale to carry on..

other fairytale, i can walk right outa it so easy..
bt this one, i'm not able to, cos i'l not willing to..
cos this fairytale is so beautiful..
is so nice...

haiz..
i dunno how to use words to xpress the feelings within me now...
i'm just not feeling right,
my heart feels so weak...weak till i dun wan wish to let it continue beating..

pls, just return to me sn...
i hope you really do...
God please help me..